Think it’s getting bad again
I’ve been lying to my friends
Feel the weight here in this bed
Truth is i’m tired

Sit and wait for walls to speak
Searching for some kind of clarity
I’m afraid of what they’ll think of me
If they heard

See i’m smiling
It’s okay if i’m crying
Just as long as i’m trying
To wake up and breathe

Take cold showers
Eat alone at odd hours
Replay all the encounters
That i’ll unpack in therapy

Last time i saw you i was just a little bit brighter
And now you’re waiting on my light to return
Someone lied when they told you that i was a fighter
‘cos now i’m praying for you to come save me, pleasе come and save me
Bеfore i become something hard to believe in
And you know that you’re better off leaving
See i’m smiling
It’s okay if i’m crying
Just as long as i’m trying
To wake up and breathe

Take cold showers
Eat alone at odd hours
Replay all the encounters
That i’ll unpack in therapy