I don’t like to play with words
I like to tell ‘em
I don’t get fucked up on drugs
Even though I might need them
All I want to is to become happy (yeah)
I’m tired of my mind telling
To suck it up and start laughing
I’d like to face my inner demon
I’d like to fight him, and win the battle
Unfortunately I’m losing
I’m losing hope, losing my mind
Losing my ways to cope
With certain stuff (yeah)

See it’d be dope to finally smile and genuinely mean it
It’d be amazing to be able to love and trust
It’d be amazing to able to commit to certain stuff
I wish I wasn’t complaining all the time
I wish I could stop wishing my way around
I wish and I wish
Man fuck I wish

I look at the skies and ask for life to be fair
Then I look down at the ground and hope that god’s there

What if I didn’t drop out the first time
What if I never started writing my depressing thought down
Would I be dead or depressed as shit
It’s the biggest if
What is happiness, I never knew it
My mind tells me
Don’t trust them
Don’t love
Are you dumb or fucked up
Go ahead get your heart broken up (yeah)
Once again I look at the skies and ask for life to be fair
Then I look down at the ground and hope that god’s there

Please tell me you can relate
I don’t wanna be alone
It’s this feeling that tells you
Something is wrong but you have no clue
What it may be or what it might do to you
It might just kill you or confuse the fuck out of you
Please tell me you know it
I’m tired of feeling alone
I’m tired of the desire to end it
Temptations on my mind
I’m happily killing my soul
Temptations to kill myself right now
I’m dying slow (yeah)

I take a look in the mirror
And see a broken kid with hopeless dreams he’ll never achieve, nothing is clearer
The darkness consumed me
Black clothes, black circles under my eyes
People ask way too many questions
And my answers are full of lies
I’m happy yeah I’m happy
Man I wish I was