HappyHappy
Proud but Also Scared of Me
The best feeling ever is driving very very very very fast
Down deserted roads at one in the morning
With my windows rolled down and its 32 degrees out
I could almost swear that I'm flying
And the best feeling ever is just buying you food
Watching that happy look spread across your face
Best $13.98 that I think I’d ever spend on two bowls of mac and cheese
And the best feeling ever is when you pick up the phone
When I call you after just one ring
And I know you were probably just on Facebook or something
But you talk to me without hesitating
The best feeling ever is just driving home from work
When it's cold out and we have nothing left to do
We'll watch some TV we’ll make a pizza
Maybe finish a wine bottle or two
But you know me
I'm a sucker for being sad when I should be happy
'Cause I'm the ultimate killjoy, the ultimate pain
The best ever nomad at staying in place
If you could find your way up here
I'd find mine out just as quickly
By the time you made it up to Trinidad
I'd be hiding out in salt lake city
In the heart of the fire
In the belly of the beast
The city I was born in never looked that good to me
'Cause I'm the ultimate killjoy, the ultimate pain
The best ever nomad at staying in place
If you could find your way up here
I’d find mine out just as quickly
By the time you made it up to Trinidad
I’d be hiding out in Salt Lake City
In the heart of the fire
In the belly of the beast
The city I was born in never looked that good to me
No amount of Xanax or Lexapro or Celexa will ever fix this
Serotonin machine's broke
Could I get you something different
It’s been this way since I was 12
Nothing really changes
Except the fact my medicines are now slightly less than prescription
And I keep having this dream
That they find you under a bridge
Body all torn and mangled
And eyeballs missing from their sockets
After months of investigation they will find them
You''re proud but also scared of me
And I think that that makes sense
'Cause out of everyone you know well I’m not one of them
You''re proud but also scared of me
And I think that that makes sense
'Cause out of everyone you know well I'm not one of them
That punk kid who did well in school
I graduated summa cum laude
Immediately got a job out of college and moved up to Rapid City
In the heart of the fire in the belly of the beast
The city I was born in never looked that good to me
'Cause I'm the ultimate killjoy, the ultimate pain
The best ever nomad at staying in place
If you could find your way up here
I'd find mine out just as quickly
By the time you made it up to Trinidad
I'd be hiding out in Salt Lake City
In the heart of the fire
In the belly of the beast
The city I was born in never looked that good to me