I'll take a little blue pill
I'm starting over
Got my shit together
My head is back on my shoulders
And I am living the life
That I should have a while ago
I finally got my mental illness under control
In a box, I put it under my bed
Instead of taking it out
On people who don't deserve it
Living the life that I wanna live
I guess Alex called it
I'm breaking the egg

Now I am doing my makeup
I am absolute shit
I got shaky hands from back when I was drinking
And I still change my clothes
When I go to the store
But I am working on it
I am not as insecure
As you wantеd me to be
How I was raised to
Not quеstion these things
And how to stand still
How you wanted me to be
And how I wanted to kill the way you see me
The way you see me, still