[Verse 1]:
Deep down I feel like a monster
Why won't you help me
Cuz it's hard enough for me
In my head, in my thoughts, in words
And I don’t get to see you so often
And I feel so cold
Because it's hard enough for me
In my head, in my thoughts, in words

Feeling so miserable
Teach me the ways to your heart, the ways to your mind, quit wasting my time
It's a miracle
All the lies that I've been through
You were too busy, breaking my heart, infecting my mind, I'm chasing my soul

[Pre-Chorus]:
All the times that I had to say amen
I was cold and you still left me aimless
On the scenе I was afraid to talk
I was keeping all the words in my head

[Chorus]:
Deep down I feel like a monstеr
Why won't you help me
Cuz it's hard enough for me
In my head, in my thoughts, in words
And I don’t get to see you so often
And I feel so cold
Because it's hard enough for me
In my head, in my thoughts, in words
[Verse 2]:
And it filled my heart full of hatred
Now I think about the time that wasted
No light on my skin cuz
All I see are visions, yeah, they got me blinded

[Bridge]:
Do you ever get this feeling in your chest?
Like trying hard to breathe
But you ain't got nothing left
Now you're crying in your shower
And you're thinking 'bout your ex
Feeling pushed against the wall
And life has got you by the neck

[Verse 3]:
I miss the times when we'd go out and play
I miss the times when we didn't care 'bout the fakes
The memories, yeah, I got them engraved in my brain
Telling me why it's not the same
No matter how many phone calls we make
The fact is that things will never be saved
Let’s just put a pause on life, let’s start walking by
Before I end up in my grave

[Verse 4]:
Falling behind, can't reach to me
And I'm tryna find the piece to peace
Caught me looking at you like na na na
You got me magical like ta da da
And you're not an enemy to me
I just miss the friends we used to be
Maybe I'm just dreaming too much, maybe I'm just seeing too much
Tasting life, I'm feeling so priceless
Will my life end at the end of a rifle?
As the time bends, I'mma spend all the right words
On the right ones
Tell me, what is my life worth?
When I think about you, I think of pretty flowers
And every time that we kiss, yeah, you give me power
[Chorus]:
Deep down I feel like a monster
Why won't you help me
Cuz it's hard enough for me
In my head, in my thoughts, in words
And I don’t get to see you so often
And I feel so cold
Because it's hard enough for me
In my head, in my thoughts, in words