I don't know what is going lately, yeah
I don't know why I tried to kill myself a couple of times
I don't know why I do feel so crazy
I don't know why death is on my mind, fuck
People playing with my mind, playing with my time
Leaving me behind, but they don't realize that behind my closed eyes
Are tears, the cries, and I wanna just take this life away
Cuz nobody needs it
So tell me what's the point in keeping it?
"Don't say that"
"Why?"
"It gets better."
(bullshit, aye)
Cuz I been stuck like this since I was 12, my mental health fell off the shelf
Like me, it's on the floor, I ain't feeling good no more
And I wrote a little note
I guess a suicide letter, it's ripped but I put it together
And it reads:
"It's clear to see nobody needs me, I'm left to be on this scene, if you'd seen what I've seen, you'd understand why I'm doing this. This is the only way to make 'Balloons' pop, the day 'Balloons' pops is the day all this bullshit, the fire, the fury, the sadness, all my scars, all my tears, the madness stops, that's what I need, I'm gone."
I don't know what is going lately
I don't know why I tried to kill myself a couple times
I don't know why I feel so crazy
I don't know why death is on my mind
I don't know why I get these thoughts in my head, uh
I don't know why I think I'm better off dead, uh
I don't know why, oh, hell seems to be where my mind treads
I don't know where to find my fucking meds, shit
Can somebody help please?
I'm fucking done, man
Nah, fuck that shit
I'm fucking done
Uh, you shouldn't have to feel like this
Yeah, I know there's people you'll miss
"But I can't control any of this, I'm telling you, I'm completely just gonna end it right here, right now. So leave. Now."
"No, you're not."
"I said now!"
"Fuck you, bitch, do it then."
"I fucking will!"
"Bye, bitch."
See?
That's the type of shit that happens to the victims
They ain't able to control what's in their head
All the voices
Do this, do that
People are the influence
Don't say "Kill yourself." without thinking of the consequences
Cuz that could be implemented
Stuck in their head
That someone in this world wants them dead
They are scarred, and their minds are barred
"You're insane."
"Shut the fuck up!"
"Don't do this."
"I'ma fucking get what I deserve and this what people are saying I should do."
"You don't deser-."
"Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, he did it, I'm going to his house, fuck!"