[Chorus]
How come I could never escape and how come I still feel so afraid and how come I denied my faith and drown out the darkness this thoughts that consume my head

[Verse 1]
Lately I can never seem to escape, I've been a victim of my thoughts and every single mistake
Feel like clarity is a drug and I just need me a taste so I can find a right path please show me the way
Cause I've been searchin' way below the surface, feel like I've been turned into a whole different pеrson, treating all the ones I lovе like they’re a burden
So when they all pass I know that I'll feel worthless
I'm trying to live a better life and I've been working for it every night
I tell my self "don't get distracted 'til your bread is right"
I'm never spending time with family 'cause they barely understand me
If they look into my mind they'll see what hell is like
I'm drowning, liquor that I'm doused in never helped shit but it's quicker then some counseling
Always by myself still I feel like I'm surrounded
Say my family's proud but I truly fucking doubt it, like what could they say "Way to go Vin, way to leave us back here, way to be a completely different person then last year, only hit us up when you got a reason to brag, yeah push us out of the way just to guarantee that your path clear"

[Chorus]
How come I could never escape and how come I still feel so afraid and how come I denied my faith and drown out the darkness this thoughts that consume my head

[Verse 2]
Hey Vin, it's us again it's your family, we know your probably working on music or something fancy
You made it real clear that we are less important that grammys and we are really glad to see that your life without us is happy
You bough a house with some rap money, congrats bro
It really helps with the fact that you are leaving dad broke
He's almost 60 so way to ruin he's last hope
He can't retire, we are glad that you're swimming in cash tho
And don't forget that you left your Nephew and Neace from the moment they were born and like barely able to breath
Hope you're not to traumatized and it's not affecting your sleep
Well we know it's not cause when we call you don't wanna speak
Man you really got to wonder if you truly feel empathy
So focused on your future that you threat us like a memory
Call us all your family but is more like we're your enemies and everybody praise you for the person you pretend to be
Celebrity boy you're so famous, find yourself worth in the money, that's dangerous
That's why you either get paid or get wasted, your runnin' from the truth no wonder your so anxious
You're not looking well, I mean we are only looking out for your health, but you are a selfish motherfucka' lookin' out for yourself
Trade the love and your family for a mountain of wealth then write a fucking song about us so your album could sell
Man what a sick joke, turning on your kinfolk think we liked you better all those days that you sniffed coke
Get it in the open even tho you wanted tip-toe as it probably turned you into a motherfuckin' schizo
Accept your faith, say you love us but that shit so fake, you becomin' everything you hate
You barely show your face and by the time you recognize what truly matters motherfucker it's gonna be too late
[Chorus]
How come I could never escape and how come I still feel so afraid and how come I denied my faith and drown out the darkness this thoughts that consume my head