[Chorus]
Droppin' every Xan and Perky, help me see my demons lurkin'
Now, I see my prayers workin'
Hopefully, this world don't hurt me, droppin' every Xan' and Perky
Help me up, baby, help me, up (Look)
[Verse 1]
And I fault nobody but myself, my admission
I'm guilty of assumin' that love is an instinct
I extended the dap and now I'm strange fruit
It's majestic from a distance, get in close, you better shoot
Couple months after convertin', grandfather go and croak
God's got a sense of humor, I'm not too fond of His jokes
Steady pressin' 'bout my deen, seen the strongest men fall victim
Not through physicality, it's like it's some' in they genes
Every Black misandric notion a hindrance in devotion
If curses can't be broken through carceral hypnosis
Why I feel the need to throw away the key?
Check, look
What you relay upon others best be ready to reap yourself
Lost my willpower to the mirrors and the parallels
I have spilled cowards, left their confidence up on they shelf
And I have killed flowers that once blossomed within ourselves
Pulled out a stack like, "How much for a second chance?", uh
[Chorus]
Droppin' every Xan' and Perky, help me see my demons lurkin' (Keep it goin', keep it goin')
Now, I see my prayers workin'
Hopefully, this world don't hurt me, droppin' every Xan' and Perky
Help me up, baby, help me up (Look)
[Verse 2]
Which personality of mine do you see a forever with?
I'll force the facade, kill the nature within me, bury the evidence
Seen myself within her, why I want her? Starin' in them rivers showed me to be tender through the jungle, yet I showed resistance
Was lookin' through you just to glimpse at my progression
Didn't notice all the bruises that was left through my possession
Thirty thousand feet up, face meltin' from congestion
As I wondered if the agony was part of bigger lessons
'Member helicopters spun the block, the yellow tape abundant, cops runnin'
Tryna save the hostages from the cunnin'
And the school locks down for the umpteenth time
They was sellin' at the papi store and, suddenly, was gunnin'
You would think we come from ashes anew
I couldn't beat it, so I'm tortured by the temptation of joinin' the crew
Oh, he a alpha? Bet, ayy, B, see what these do
Shells to his chest or to his head, whatever pleases you
Can't out-rap no bullet, saw futility at fullest, n***a
[Chorus]
Droppin' every Xan and Perky, help me see my demons lurkin' (Let it rock)
Now, I see my prayers workin'
Hopefully, this world don't hurt me, droppin' every Xan' and Perky
Help me up, baby, help me up
[Verse 3]
And as I sat and saw the architecture of lands fantastical
I inhale and tell myself, "I'm a'ight"
May not have been the best at it all
May not have captured everyone's hearts
But I made it outta norf, I might've won the game of life
Still they track my prints, I'm blood bound
I'm bloodied up by bullets and bloodhounds
There's no way this inescapable
Tried to recall the tales of a man, in which he gains new beginnings
Drew up a blank, wallahi, I'm finished