Intro:
You can’t blame me for taking this long to let it go
When I had my whole heart in it
Broken and everything
Though it was broken and imperfect
It was still all I had
That I gave

Verse 1:
Hey Doug
It’s been a long time since I’ve seen you
In some ways I wish I could be you
You’re gone but you’re home now
It was hard to stay strong
Going back and forth just too long
Tumor wasn’t benign they kept removing it
Memory kept coming back, you had a stroke
Your thoughts just kept losing it
You accepted people in. Your sons ex girl wasn’t the best, she still came to support it was no stress
When you were in the bed they wanted to see you I said hell yes, every time
Big homie you stayed on my mind
Looking down from above I’m doing fine
At least trying to, myself I used to lie to
You kept it 100 yourself I was surprised dude
How could you stay so positive
More than a test, in all honest ness
You showed us all what kindness is
I’d hoped you’d be at the wedding
I hoped before death you smile to give us our blessing
When you had that last stroke, I knew it was close
Even when I posted the video
You still showed love and support
You liked my note on your wall on your birthday
Even after it all fell down in the worst way
I saw it coming, I told her in our secret meeting
Just let me know when you pass; and when you do I don’t need to be at the burial, but at least let me know where you’re at so I can go and give my thanks and the lessons I learned
Double pinky promise, sealed with a kiss
I expected you get a shout so I could reminisce
Just like this but I never got it had to go to her profile to see that you weren’t wearing the living outfit
You were long gone. It was plain to see
I felt a lot of betrayal but that’s just you and me
This is all subjective they probably felt betrayed no one told them the struggle I gave effort
There’s two sides to every story and three when the truth gets told
Some would call this track a very bold move
This is needed to let it go. It fucking hurts like a knife piercing my heart real slow
This ain’t for show, it’s for me, the real me
To stay quiet would have been the route the most easy
A track’s the way to ease me. Not alcohol, marijuana, porn
No hath fury like a woman scorned they say
Whose line is it anyway?
We can save all the debating for another day
Mama 1 here’s what I wanna say
Verse 2:
Yeah
Alongside Doug you’re in heaven
You love cheez-it’s if I heard right
Daughter 2 and 3 came to take care of ya
Wanted to see that grave down south after we married, but sometimes will and love ain’t enough to carry it home
I places you in my prayers with Rose
I had to see you as well if my day came
Heaven I rose up
Who knows what, the disconnect was
You had daughter carrying around Buzz
I ain’t talking lightyear this ain’t the toy’s story
No one is getting played with the topic isn’t boring
Bumble bees were your soul insect
I called Daughter number 3 that
Her heart is where you bes at
That’s anyway
I had to say it
Got smart like Anne Hathaway
Gave praise but not on a Saturday
Night. Going out I couldn’t keep up the fight
No clout these girls wouldn’t look at me right
That’s just insight for a remarkable cause
I’m in the storm, the weather guys couldn’t forecast this song
Don’t be alarmed
Forgive me. I’m going to elaborate further
So you and Doug protect us cause this world is full of murder. Can’t believe we had to talk about that I’ll get to it later. Let’s go down the list to how I couldn’t save her
Verse 3:
Daughter 1 I don’t understand how you couldn’t give that graduation ring to daughter 2, there’s a lot of animosity between her and you. You passed to daughter 3 out of spite. Couldn’t even show up to the party, now that ain’t right
There’s a lot of pain that you and Husband Number 1 didn’t talk about yall acted like everything was okay and tried to walk it out. It ain’t no longer my place to talk about it. You talked about my fit at wedding I kinda cared about it. Was told I shouldn’t mind you perhaps you both will come to your senses before the light blinds you…
Mmm

Verse 4:
Alright, yeah
Daughter Number 2
I did it for you, you got cancer I didn’t show up out of the blue
I was dating daughter number 3
From the get, she told how important mama 1 and you were to her, how the development of character was credited to the status of you two
The bond we had was real close so I figured I had to show up just out of oath to myself and our eventual relationship. I’ll address that it wasn’t the most fair to anyone to meet under those circumstances but no matter what I say I couldn’t justify not trying to meet another way. Y’all were all hurting. I didn’t see it as just an in, it was more important for you to make it. I don’t know what would have happened if you passed. I gave daisies, not the purple like wanted, but in hopes that one day at last you would be cancer free. God is good
You invited me to the run, we walked together
We ran the next year, held hands and crossed the border together
I considered you to be my real mom. Not my mother. You accepted me in without knowing the damage I committed. That’s love or so I thought

Father Number 2, who knows how you felt
Someone wanted to date your daughter
Probably wanted to hit me with a belt cause that woman is your treasure
Believe me when I say I gave her all my effort
You took me as another son, you told me that Father Number 1 and Mama 1 on the other side wasn’t really there for you. How we coincide
Was we both acquired them crutches at young ages my guy
You got closer with the family as time aged, at least some of them. It was a pleasure meeting them. You and me bonded working on my old car. The brakes didn’t quite fit, I barely made it home I was just grateful for the effort even though I couldn’t roll. It’s all good

Now both, Father 2 and Daughter Number 2. You both pooled together to get me Mary Lou
Very kind of you, I couldn’t see your daughter ripped her apart too almost broke up from that a warning from the start. For a Christmas you gave me that car for 500 bones it was such a great car. The two of you gave me cards and were there and I did my best to return the favor. You two are the strongest couple I met I savored your story and connection. I had hoped that your daughter and I’d have the same blessing
I apologize to you two the most for not revealing my secret when I asked for hand in marriage; couldn’t keep it. I didn’t feel close enough to y’all. Trust me, this isn’t anyone’s fault it took me 21 years to tell my family, it’s only rational I couldn’t tell the other half I knew you wouldn’t understand me. That’s selfish for me to say it still stands cause if you did you would have questioned me as a man in person…
Verse 5:
Son Number 2 I regret not playing more hoops with you, i was depressed a lot of the time. In a reclusive state. I keep my shoes and basketball in the car like you just to be honest. Daughter 3 looked up to you a lot. Real close. I appreciate you wanting us to be bros. We related a lot on “What are Those” and Lil Dicky you picked me up when I didn’t have a car so she could see me. That’s real G. I respected your muscle gain you were skinny like me. It’s something still need to attain. You watched a lot of my stories which made me question why didn’t you step up for me when I posted that video. It wasn’t the first time I vented there you had to hear me though. In regards to you and wife 2 I heard y’all got married and wish the best life for you

For wife 2 we met quite a bit we would have food races on who could eat the most shit. It was good you always checked for me when we met you and your fam wasn’t the closest either and we talked and had respect. I’m sure you had other secrets to protect. I appreciate you keeping the proposal secret so long for a few years and were there when I asked her hand. To the both of you I planned to fly out there. But what would you do? We broke up, what am I gonna take the flight, we don’t talk, I find another place to stay at night? What would you do?
I’m thankful for you two and I always sent blessings when a hurricane came out the blue..

Verse 6
Now Wife 1 I didn’t know you that well. We met on nice terms, you respected Son 1 and that’s all that was needed to earn, my respect. It didn’t matter that he had an arrest for drinking behind the wheel. You stood by his side and attested anything against it. You had a failed marriage as well, I suppose somewhere you understand.You opened up over time around us. We figured if you stayed too close it was gonna be a bust but you kept up the growth. I’m proud of you. You became his wife and I heard that you had a cancer scare too. I hope that everything is going well with that. Your family went through it you don’t deserve that. I apologize that you invited me to your wedding and cut me out the picture after it wasn’t working. I didn’t mean for that to happen. I stood in the rain, the only out there i knew then yeah I wasn’t the same as you all. But I tried to make it work yeah that dress and the handsome dude made me tear up when y’all shared them vows and kissed. One of my favorite songs played and I was happy, seeing that dude happy after going through so much was enough to keep me sane and then some. Former King Sooper buds, taking care of my technical son, so thank you

Verse 7:
Son number 1 you needed your own verse
Didn’t think that this would happen but whatever works
Deleted me on Facebook once
Because you didn’t like what I posted, huh
I can’t say I agreed with everything you did. But I never deleted anything cuz you were the kid. Yeah you and your sister weren’t the closest when we first met, that all changed after you married your best bet. Cool to see
I never understood the animosity between you and me, you invited me and her up to see you and have a drink
But how? The age gap was different enough for me to not feel comfortable to not say what I want. Wasn’t the man I am today so I put up a front a bunch I dealt with all of the shit so we can remain a bunch. I should have went up there myself and explained my concerns. Who knows perhaps my respect to you would have been earned
More so, more dough is what you would earn
In the summer until all the leaves would burn I respected your grind
Even when after that first time happened, I was cool with letting you tag along. It became a tradition with your girl to be specific and then father 2 and daughter 2 came along it was great
Funny how love turns into hate. We broke up but let me get this straight, if I contact your fam again it’s gonna raise a response, not a threat but a warning, can you come again?
Don’t block me after saying that shit. You must’ve mistook me for a bitch, you acted like a bitch
I get why you said that shit, you protecting your family I get that shit
What the fuck makes you think I would hurt them, that was my family too. What you think I did that shit out of the blue? You think that I accepted your cousin and her mishaps just to be outcast for mine? Blood is thicker than water
You laughed when daughter number 2 called me stupid, we all did, I remember it I’m real lucid. It was all love. I didn’t deserve that shit. I hit daughter number 3 anyway and told her if you hurt who I love this is gonna turn into a sit-uation that none of us would like even a little bit
This is the part mama 1. I didn’t think it would come to this, to son 1 being the icing on the cake for me getting a gun. It’s ridiculous. The reason I sent them all them letters to the address is cause I had cards addressed to me from the address and they were in storage. Didn’t feel like getting them out, so I used my knowledge and love of maps to use two and two and put it together that the address was the one I should sent the message. Yeah part of me wanted to come up but it wasn’t my place as I didn’t think anyone wanted to see my face. I’m ashamed it came out this way. It was a lesson, a reason for a lot of my stressing I couldn’t collect it

Verse 8:
To our technical son
The reason I searched high and low for you
Because of your mom, was feeling lonely
It felt like she crossed the border for me
She didn’t have many friends neither did I
So figured if I was on the road she would have some support
You got into an accident who knows what happened when you were in Texas
I wouldn’t wish it upon my exes
It didn’t help you had a dad was always mad
Sad or distracted, never dealt with my fears
So I always overreacted and spanked you
Threw you around and hit you. Mostly made you stay in your kennel
Since then I stayed with a couple of kibble eaters
Gained some patience, was never a woman beater
It doesn’t make it better
At least when I saw you again you were better
Took you to the dog park for the last time took you for a walk, spent a day and that was mad fine
Just wanted to tell you I apologize
For being the reason you had some somber eyes


Doug and mama 1, I was crying on Rose’s grave cause I couldn’t understand how this caused so much pain. I couldn’t say bye to Doug at his grave so I sent it from there. Mama 1 had to let you go but know it’s love there and I hope that in heaven there isn’t this bullshit God forgive me, no differences and all smiles...R.I.P I know I won’t see you for a while damn

Verse 9:
First off, thank you
There’s many ways I could have went about this
A couple years ago I figured it’d go a lot of ways but not this
I showed up when it mattered
You did the same
Wasn’t ready but felt if I didn’t cuff it wouldn’t be the same
You showed me a lot of lessons, I took you as a blessing didn’t figure that you thought I was pretty lame and you deserved better
I always told you from the get go if I was gonna let go that I would come back and the one to give you better
Wasn’t being clever
A lot of the times I was being selfish, I took my weaknesses and my relationships with other people on you. You were there for me and a lot of nights you cried either because I was far away or I was away in the other room doing my thing
Staying insane, gained weight
Going in circles my smile I couldn’t contain
I tried the best I could to keep a straight face around the family
With all the space could they really understand me
You never let go and I never expected you to
But there were times you wouldn’t listen you had to call the pops up too
Nothing wrong with it but you weren’t ready to let go
You didn’t tell me you cried on the way home
Until everything was over, so how the fuck would I know
I thank you for supporting my education
Not enough money so you paid for me to go to my classes that summer
No bummer cause I got A’s in my way to repay
You for your efforts, that our future wasn’t to be messed with
But somewhere down the line
I made the decision to make the incision and step up to the plate
We should have discussed a bit more about what was at stake
You showed up to my pops birthday, you put up with his shit
Only because I was doing the same
Played the victim, in every sense when I was the one to blame
For a lot of things
Extended past just me and you
Asked pops and moms if it was cool to move in with you
It was funny
The more I opened up the more I started feeling like a dummy
I ignored some red flag then I have some questions
Who knows if you’ll answer them I’ll just get it off my chest then
Why didn’t you want to tell your fam that we met online?
I had to do it myself when asking your hand besides the lie that we met in high
School, college, then I moved back here
Why that’s a red flag is because the theme kept continuing
I helped paint that picture that I was perfect
Lord knows that I wasn’t perfect
We had arguments, had a few fights, had some interference and I had to make it right
Never told them about those problems or the ones I had with my fam
I ain’t saying its all on you but it damned sure ain't all on me
They couldn’t comprehend what was shown when I said what I said
They couldn’t understand that was a step taken to becoming a real man
So, since they heard all the bad they must’ve forgotten the good
Who came there? Who tried to go the surgeries?
Who gave birthday cards, who met your friends when they kinda heard of me
Who didn’t cheat, who didn’t blast bad information online
Who, I’m still waiting?
Who wanted to beat the ass of them other dudes that took advantage
Messed up some chemistry in the bedroom, tell me who stayed patient?
Tell me who didn’t push any boundaries in the department
Astounding I was number 3 though I was the most numb
I still put your feelings over my feelings, did what I could do so you didn’t feel used
Son is what we prevented with you went on birth control
Bleeding 24/7, depression, weight gain’s taking it’s toll
I’m just saying
Who was there when you cried, about making it to the program, they wouldn’t let you inside?
I was ready to move for the right and wrong reasons, ready to pack up to Wyoming
Cause I was still grieving and wanted to take the proper approach
Face my demons, retake some courses and play ball with a coach
When I heard the news I showed that support
Held you in my chest it was mission abort
Tried again and they still would retort
Said you were inadequate, you were smart but weren’t good at taking polls
Taking tests and quizzes that didn’t mean you were incapable
Means you applied knowledge a little different
Who stayed overnight outside in my car when you were sick?
Feel down some stairs, throw up in a bowl and shit
Who cleaned that up?
All this depression saying that I caused it
Perhaps I did but you don’t think that there was times you caused mine?
It was a two-way street, yeah I didn’t want to live past 55
When I wanted the Air Force, our theme was that if I came back I would steal you back from whoever you were with
We ran with that. Even when I went to school we said the same thing just to be specific
Then we had our meetings in March after the break up
Made love and promised the reproposal I would take up
I said I was keeping the ring, I ain’t coming back for you now because I ain't the man yet I wanna be. I said i loved you and you said we’d be back together if it wasn’t for moving back up north
Probably forever
It was all good, we agreed if it was meant to be it was meant to be
Had to see you in April see, buts after I jumped out of a plane
To make I had a reason to be in the plane of reality
You were kind of mad at me I tried to pursue sex
Part of my strategy cause I thought we were on the same page
The stage was set, we at that point were just friends
You told me Wife 1 had a cancer scare, that was after our phone chat about Son 1 getting caught up a second time. I showed nothing but support as I have
I didn’t lie when I said I still loved you but I gave you space, tried to hang to keep it close
But you went on dates
Hell we both did. We had a little bird that came in between us and said that I mooched off you
Hell no, we split everything down the middle and even pops to this day respects you for being a good teammate
So now let me get it straight, I remember the dates of the mock boards, the real boards you don’t even let me know when you graduate? I sent 9 letters directed to all and all I get is perceived hate? I get it
We promised you’d get a new house, listening to Flo Rida “Welcome to my house” sipping on Rum Chata but instead it turned into nada
It’s like you didn’t tell them shit. How’d I know it was going to turn out like this?
Go to hell huh?

Final Monologue:
Wow, it’s crazy to me. I’m not saying I’m perfect here, by any means. I’m just showing you there’s two sides to every story. Three when the truth gets told. I’m sure she didn’t tell you a lot of things about what I’ve said here. I’ve known a lot of shit, some shit I’m still not going to say out of respect. Even the shit I did say was kept in wraps by me and I didn’t support your family any different
Did I agree with everything you did? No
Were we 100% compatible? No
There were some gaps in between how you all lived your lives and how my family lived ours?
Yes
There’s some shit I couldn’t fathom about what you all had to deal with
The same goes for the lot of you in regards to me
I get a death threat for contacting you to make amends. Hell, to be honest I didn’t expect to get her back if I’m being 100% honest. If anything I wanted forgiveness and wanted to at least look you all in the face one more time and apologize
She knew about my dog situation. Does that make it right? No
That dog has been through so much and didn’t deserve what I put him through
The main reason I was the primary drive in getting that dog was because she felt alone
She had no friends, which I encouraged her that my friends were hers as well. That we can all chill whenever. She missed you all and I did the best I could to balance the time spent
Hell, I thought about going to school at Front Range and living up there so she could be close again
What the fuck do you guys think I was doing?
I kept her protected in good neighborhoods. I rushed to her rescue after she got in a bad accident, which was somewhat blamed on me because she didn’t go in a yellow before me but “allegedly” mistimed the light and got hit by someone else. I was willing to pull traffic light cameras if that had one and conduct research for her to fight that. I stayed by her side until I had to leave for work
You think I wanted to be another one of those people that you either have to cut out of photos or get rid of them because it didn’t work out?
You think I wanted to waste $1500 and some change for engagement photos and marriage plans?
You think I spent 3 and a half years, not included the time it took for me to let this go, just to have it thrown down the drain?
Have y’all lost your fucking mind?
I’ve been with 7 people and have been in a serious relationship with 4 of them
I don’t enter a relationship unless I see potential. I didn’t do this for giggles and it wasn’t a fucking joke to me
You all were my family and your problems were my problems. When you hurt I hurt
It seems that wasn’t the case when the tables turned
Acting like there wasn’t equal pleasure and pain with me and her
It was mutual. We were both there at each other’s worst times and there for the best
I don’t give a fuck what she or yall decide to tell people. We rode for each other
I fucking loved that girl. I planned to spend the rest of my life with her
We had our kids named for the most part. We had plans to move to Florida to be closer to Son 2 and Wife 2. We had our future cars planned. We had it planned out
I never expected that one fucking video would cause a rift that fucking big after all that we all have been through. You all deserved me telling you first, I will give you that. I apologize for that
But don’t act as if we were all that close that I could share something like that. See it from my point of view. Even after you all texted me before the video, i still responded with lets talk
Besides my father that doesn’t like social media anyway, and I don’t blame him, he didn’t like that video for reasons alongside his disdain for social media. Besides him, out of anyone that fucked with me like that only you all were the ones the didn’t support me. Doug was the ONLY person that liked it! And he is resting at home now
I can’t say what you all went through because of that. I apologize I put you through that
However, when she told me “I didn’t ever think I would have to defend you in front of them”
That told me all I needed to know. What did you all expect?
I was the perfect prince charming that had not a scuff on my armor?
That there was never going to be a time when you didn’t agree with something that I did?
You couldn’t defend me like I defended y’all?
We were fucking family. Y’all should have called me up there so we could all talk about this shit and work it out
Not some bullshit about how I’m this piece of shit that didn’t do shit for your girl
Not some bullshit about how I’m going to be dealt with if I contact you again
I fucking am dealing with a psychopath of a mother, that your girl SHOWED UP TO FIGHT HER WITH ME that talked about killing my family and stalks me in some way shape of form TO THIS DAY
Why the fuck would I do the same thing I hate, to your family?
The notion that I would never hurt her is bullshit because I already did before y’all told me not to when it came to marriage. She hurt me. We both were hurting each other
There were times I dieted and she helped me to break my diet and eat bad. Vice versa
I kept growing in that relationship whether you believe me or not. So did she
We both gave each other our baggage before we went further after our first date and accepted it. Both of us can’t play the victim because we signed up for it
I was crawling in terms of improving but made sure that I was improving in some way shape or form. Went from barely working a job to two jobs before we moved in and occasionally when we lived together. Went from playing hooky and playing video games to not missing a shift unless I had to
No I’m not a dude that decided to finish college like her current man
That’s great and I get why y’all wanted her to get a degree and her +1 as well
That’s not the only way to do things
She didn’t tell you we took part in a business venture that we quit, that I’m in for a second time right now did she?
Not her fault. It was our decision. Wrong mentor, right medium
My purpose is to help people with escapism period
Everyone has their crutch. Even y’all

With that being said. Anyone still listening needed to hear this tape
This was for me
Y’all think I’m this pure nice guy that hasn’t fucked up
This guy that is just a pure little soul that hasn’t done shit
Well, apparently you don’t know me
Apparently you don’t know how dark I can be and have gotten
I have always wanted to be a gentleman
The part people, including me, forget is that you have to be a MAN first
Gentle-MAN
What’s the two biggest drives of men?
Sex and Aggression
Of course I have the sex portion down
I have a form of escapism for it for Christ’s sake
Lord forgive me
That has caused me to place bars on myself and others that can’t and maybe shouldn’t be reached
I’m working on that
Do you realize how big of an epidemic sexual addiction is, especially in this generation?
There’s some people that don’t even know they have an addiction to it
That’s another topic for another time, but you try being in the middle of two parents, being fed medicine, being called retarded and bullied for a decade and a half, being touched by a dude that wouldn’t listen to me, being accused of sexually molesting your brother, and being called a predator, and you let me know how you would handle it. You want my height and body but would you live with my problems too? Everyone has problems and it can always be worse

Do your research before you ever call me a pedophile, creep, or anything of the sort you fucking hypocrites
I’m a fucking human. I make mistakes just like you do. I lie and have been lied to. I’ve hurt and have been hurt. I’ve respected and disrespected
I’m weird. I’m goofy. I’m caring. I’m loving
But oh, that second drive. That aggression?
I can do that too
I’ve gotten into many fights. Many arguments. Used to be in anger management class
Used to lose my cool. But grew beyond that. But a lot of people didn’t see that step
Pull my card if you want to
Any of you want to fight me in court?
I’ve fought and am still fighting my mother and most of my life has had some fucking form of court in it
You think if I get a restraining order on my own mother that I can’t fight you in court?
Ahahahaha
I’m not proud of it and I’m paying for it till this day, but I hit my own father in the mouth
You think I have a problem trading blows with you?
I’ve always wanted a gun and Son 1 is the icing on the cake for me getting one
I’m down for court play, fist play, knife play, gun play, you fucking name it
If you ever come at me with malicious intent to myself and/or my loved ones then you’ve got another thing coming. Notice I said me. I spent so long neglecting myself and not giving a damn about what happens to me. From wanting to commit suicide to wanting any ailment you can think of applied to me so I can die. I’ve wanted death most of my life
I’m not scared of that shit. So try me if you want to, I fucking dare you
Now here’s the kicker
You see, anyone can curse. Anyone can get belligerent, anyone can kill or be killed
I’m not special. I’m not some kingpin that can’t get touched
I’m not harder than the next kid
But I fight for what I love and now I love me, so I will fight for me too
But see, what people don’t understand is that the way to win wars is through not starting one in the first place
I ride solo dolo for the most part. It ain’t hard to find me. I speed most of the time so I know if you’re following me. Before we get to it. I’m a man of peace and positivity now
Yes I will try to avert war at most costs. But a gentleman has a glove of velvet and a hand of steel
That’s all I have to say on that
My point of this tape and my growth is that hindsight is 20/20
I’ve held on to all of this shit for way too long
Letting people or things that should be gone, still lay in your mind is like letting them live in your head rent free
You gotta let that shit go in some way or fashion or it will turn you into cancer and you will die
You can be breathing and still dead inside, I would know
This is bigger than the family I reference; hell I’m not obsessed
If it wasn’t for her and myself agreeing that I would come back as that was the theme of the whole fucking relationship, I would have let go a long fucking time ago
Y’all did me dirty. You did me dirty and you all fucking know it
When I needed y’all the most y’all bailed on me
That’s okay though
I have a beautiful girl turning woman that I plan to help grow into a lady alongside this growing gentleman speaking to you right now
She understands where I am coming from and she ain’t the perfect package but so many fucking people want the perfect thing and won’t work for it
Won’t help the other person come up
Water your grass before critiquing someone else's. I was told to move on and that will be the smartest decision of my life. I’d have to agree
I can’t wait to see our growth and thank you for sitting there and being a part of this and listening to me lay this tape down. I love you and am so blessed for you Alyssa and thank your family that does accept me for my flaws and is doing shit for me regardless of my mishaps. Let’s keep it up. We will get our families out of debt and will be okay and be people of God/The Cosmics/Our higher power
To the other family in question and to everyone else I apologize if I hurt you and I am thankful for what you have done
I am thankful for the person I am today and wouldn’t be that person if it wasn’t for you
I have forgiven all of you for the hurt you've caused me and I used to want the same in return
I want the best for you all and I used to want the same in return
I’ve grown from my mistakes and am trying to right my wrongs as a new man that has realized his purpose in life and wants to get his life right before helping others do the same
My pops is 30K in debt, my girl is 20K in debt, and I have never met my sister and I want to be a good role model for my brother. I’m trying to fix all that
I’m not perfect, never will be. And I will continue to make mistakes and hurt others
But I’ll be damned if I don’t try to fix those and be a man of God before I die
If you can’t or won’t understand or support that and still wish ill of me
Then fuck you. It’s as simple as that
Come up with me or be left behind
I gotta do what’s best for God, me, and my family
Borealis
Lay on the Pedal LLC
Retrieval: Hindsight is 20/20
We’re coming
God bless and God and Jesus Christ, The Cosmics Forgive me
I’m outta here