What if all this was for nothing? 
But I know that it wasn’t 

Cuz I know it gave something
I wasn’t as hopeless as I was when 
 
I didn’t have something to motivate me 
To get up in the morning   

No wonders I’m this annoyed with 
Always ending up unemployed if
 
I even opened up my mouth
It’s preferred if I go with 

The herd of no personalities
Where no one shows emotions 
 
We’re forced to withhold it 
But no one even once told us   

That this was what life is about 
But I wasn’t about to cop out 
 
Have too much still to talk about 
This time I thought it out 
Reaching my deepest 
To each and one of you now 
 
Lets trade shoes a while 
Then use it how 
 
You feel it’s suitable
And if u misuse it I’ll 
 
Find a way to utilize
What you might’ve thought 
 
More prejudice than a juvenal
New denial isn’t soothing now 
 
Got nothing to prove no more
Know what I’m doing now 
 
Beyond approval about
On what I’m writing down
 
Know I can figure this out, no doubt
I’m growing dependent on this

But as long as I’m the one 
Who’s doing all the deciding I won’t quit
Heart on my sleeve cuz it don’t fit
Behind my ribcage cuz this void is
Consuming all hope I would avoid this

Assuming if I’m broke and can’t afford it
With time I lose sight of what’s important

And fall back into the line and choose to forfeit
Incorporated in my spine to force this morbid

Excuse of passing time, at times enormous
Clouds orbit around, I’m too torn to sort this
Bipolar mind and each side is morphing

Into a complete torture, can’t afford to
Continue more if the feeling is forceful

Unremorseful, tired of open up doors to
People too weak to be resourceful

Gotta put myself first, and make it forth to
Front lines or crawl back to a distort view

Cuz I donno where to resort to
When it feels like I’m out of options to go through