( Verse )
Hello darkness my old friend
I have came to talk with you
Again I need to tell you some
Things you may not understand
I hate this place I hate myself
Sometimes the worst place you
Can be is in your own head
No, I may not be physically alone
But mentally there is no one there
At all I look for hours in my thoughts
No one is there and then i think
Maybe i was designed to be alone
Sometimes i even feel like maybe
Just maybe i should be sorry for being
Born you are probably thinking this is just
To get attention from people but its not
You never understood how i feel cause i never
Told you anything about what is going on and i feel
That i should say it right here right now
( chorus )
Nobody knows the real me
Nobody knows how many times
I cry in my room when nobody was watching
Nobody knows how many times I lost hope
How many times i've been let down
Nobody knows about the thoughts
That are in my head nobody know
About me
( Verse )
You might think im lying about this
Here are my question's Why would i lie about being suicidal
Why would i make this stuff up
Can't you tell im trying not to curse right now
Cause the only time i curse is when im mad
Even ask my friends I hate everything about me
I wish i can change how i look You say im beautiful im pretty
You want to know what i see in the mirror, I see a ugly liar that everyone hates
Yeah im talking to you mom I sometimes hear it in the tone of your voice It got to the point where I can't tell if your having a bad day or not I try to make you happy but it never works You shouldn't ask whats wrong cause obviously I don't want to say it
I'm sorry if this is making you upset cause we both know its true
At school I tell the kids Hate me all you want Its not like i cared
Anyway . Why do you think I acted like i didn't care cause i didn't
Why because you made it seem like you didn't care about me
Ok i get you list all these things and yell in my face saying i have a good life but one thing I do know You don't even understand half of it Im becoming more goth thats why i mostly wear black and listen to My chemical romance Judge me all you want ok I got hurt so much that i can actually say im used to it ok . You don't even know whats on my mind 24/7 Yeah I don't want to live but im to scared to die So what can I do I will just sit here upset and you think im happy at home im really not I fake my laugh I fake my smile cause I don't want you bothering me
( chorus )
Nobody knows the real me
Nobody knows how many times
I cry in my room when nobody was watching
Nobody knows how many times I lost hope
How many times i've been let down
Nobody knows about the thoughts
That are in my head nobody know
About me
( Verse 3 )
Ok lets summarize this up
Im slowly giving up on everything
Not because of you because of me obviously
Im a failure a loser and useless
Im not important to the world so stop trying to
Make me feel better by saying thats not true
Cause deep down in side i know and you know that it is true
So im sorry if this is making you upset or mad
But question is Why would you be mad if I told you the truth
Like right now do you want me to tell you lies like saying im fine there is nothing wrong like no you told me not to lie so now you got your
Wish im sorry this wasn't my idea to write all my feelings down it was natasha's yeah my therapist had the idea . Im banging my head against the wall as hard as i can my friends try to stop me . Obviously you can see i try to hurt myself but someone try's to stop me
Im done can't you see even though I talk to my sister's and lori alone you say don't delete the text messages And when you find out you will always find something to complain about yeah im spilling out the truth ok There is nothing wrong with that ok thats all im saying im done before i end up cursing cause i know i can't do that when your near
( chorus )
Nobody knows the real me
Nobody knows how many times
I cry in my room when nobody was watching
Nobody knows how many times I lost hope
How many times i've been let down
Nobody knows about the thoughts
That are in my head nobody know
About me
( Verse 4 )
