I’m staring outside, emptiness is slowly creeping up into my life
But I’ll watch the sun hide behind everything horizons, just kind of untangle me
But they’ll never see me cry
I know the light was always blinding but running for the hills is always better than unwinding
This castle, of loneliness is all I can remember, I’m planning my escape in mid-December
I come back to that window in the dead of night
There’s a light that likes to flicker barely out of sight
The shadows in the courtyard seem to come alive
And they’re waiting for the day my fears and heart collide
I’m clawing to get out like, God you’ll never know but I’m broken down
They all just make me feel alone
I’m not the one they’ll ever come to truly know, so I’ll sneak out
Though God it’s probably freezing cold, Woah~
Do I carry it right, the person in the mirror just wants to run and hide
While I’m dying in the silence of, every single error I’ve ever told in confidence
Until I’m out of fight, I’ll try looking for a hand to hold
But summer’s getting older and I never got the time to grow
Ivy’s reaching up the wall it wants my windpipe
They all just like to hide behind their insight
It was March 18th, we had a big fight
You left in a huff, woke up in the middle of the night
Think it was all a dream, but I looked over my shoulder and you weren’t there
And for the first time in my life I was, cold
Without you there, old
Just a moment there I thought we were for life, my dear
That’s what you told me every year
Holding my hand so tight
Thinking our future’s bright
But I never felt abandonment, quite like that night that lowly blight
Do I carry it right?(Do I carry it right?)
I’m staring outside it wants my windpipe(I’m staring outside it wants my windpipe)
And it’s waiting, It’s waiting for the day(And it’s waiting, It’s waiting for the day)
This castle of luxury is all my heart remembers
It can’t see this toxic creation of tremors