Yeah confusion is an understatement
But I love the payment
I'm in my 90s yeah I’m stepping on the pavement
Don't phase it
Won't ever blame you
But Never blame me
I wonder if the equasym will change me?
But I’ve already changed a lot
I smile a lot
Yeah there's Ink in my brain but I can't harvest the crop
So I pen all my thoughts try to open up the pours
But pain and trauma will be the keys that open doors
And the birth mark on my back has fadеd
Just like all the memoriеs
The places triggering the same sensory
When Feja messaged thinking she had forgotten me
Even though I said I'd changed
Most things are the same you see
I'm the cheeky yute from hither green
Couldn't tell you bout a book
But i could tell you all the Places I've been
Radnor fizz in the canteen
Waffle with my 16s
Syrup sweet with my 16s

I've been
Holding back from what I could be
Taking time to reset and reflect on memories
I feel
Ready to be better than I’ve been

But I’m staring through the deep abyss
Four in the morning I always have my Weetabix
I need to finish this
Before I'm fucking binning this
One eye futurama but both of your ears are hearing this
Things are looking up cos these days I’m way calmer
You can only be so sheltered from the from storm when you're skins darker
Making people care is hard
More than a week is way harder
Despite all the drama
Sip the Ka
Munch a banana
But I've stood out since birth really
Mum and dad supported me like a bursary
Keep my head and my chin up out of courtesy
But this small town mentality brings out the worst in me
There's no uncertainty
That this is what I wanna do
But what am I to do
If everything comes falling through
Man that’s a cainrows kind of tight
Yeah I write my feelings down every day and every night
I've been
Holding back from what I could be
Taking time to reset and reflect on memories
I feel
Ready to be better than I've been

Walking home I disappear in a writing daze
Refreshing rain on my face
Been in the maze for days
Wanna leave and move away
Im not Lost in my ways
But there's Ink from my pen all over my page
Wait
But I know my path, know where we are
Wear my heart on my sleeve yeah when it gets dark
Used to use it to light the path
Painting pictures with my words as a plaster for these scars
Playing dot to dot with the stars
Run the bath
Pen a few in there
I'm moving up I'm escalating but I'm taking the stairs
Through the wearing and tearing
Always the ones who is caring
Good traits no time for comparing
Or staring
But I'm pairing like Bluetooth
A change of attitude man It's like I've found a new youth
Saying what the fuck max!
I've see seen a new you
Listen to the words I'll introduce you
I've been
Holding back from what I could be
Taking time to reset and reflect on memories
I feel
Ready to be better than I've been
I've been
Holding back from what I could be
Taking time to reset and reflect on memories
I feel
Ready to be better than I've been