​midwxst
​refrain / decide
[Part I: refrain]

[Verse 1]
Girl, don't refrain
The words that you wanna say
Try to help and you push me away
When I offered out my hand
When I said I was your friend
When you said, "We need to end," that shit hurt
Was it all my fault?
Don’t know what I did wrong
I tried to be strong
But my mind's stuck in awe
And I don't know if that will change (Oh)

[Chorus]
I've been fighting
You've been hiding from all your problems
I'm indecisive, way too violent
Surprised I'm not falling
Damned out my pride
I still hate my life
But time still passes by
And I pray I survive

[Verse 2]
I'm insecure, I hate my face, my life is a mess
I try, but all the little things still get to my head
Come and suppose, unfriend, some went ghost
Baby, my eyes were closed, and they won't ever open again
[Chorus]
I've been fighting
You've been hiding from all your problems
I'm indecisive, way too violent
Surprised I'm not falling
Damned out my pride
I still hate my life
But time still passes by
And I pray I survive

[Part II: decide]

[Chorus]
I collide and try to cover up my tracks
But I decide to live in the public eye

[Verse 1]
But one day I wake up
Write a note detailing the faults in my life
And I slowly enter the light
Even though it's not my time
The fate of the awakened and the damned in this fucked up fairytale
So many times, know I was avail'
Was anything you showed me ever real?

[Chorus]
I collide and try to cover up my tracks
But I decide to live in the public eye
I collide and try to cover up my tracks
But I decide to live in the public eye
[Bridge]
(looking for comfort, it's love and it's lies)
(succumb to thoughts in my head late at night)
(remember them long night, them nights that I cried)
(thinking of shit that I kept deep inside)

[Verse 2]
All of the comments and posts, M.I.A
Whenever I close my eyes in my bed
There's some days I think I'd be better off dead
So someone can finally clean up all my mess
There's things in the past that I wish I could change
And over time, I learned how to numb my pain
I'm writing these songs so people understand
That it's okay if you do not have a plan
What you wan' do with your life
We're all human, we fuck up sometimes
But we're all trying our best to survive
In this fucked up cycle we call life

[Chorus]
I collide and try to cover up my tracks
But I decide to live in the public eye
I collide and try to cover up my tracks
But I decide to live in the public eye
[Refrain]
(Looking for comfort, it's love and it's lies)
(Succumb to thoughts in my head late at night)
(Remember them long night, them nights that I cried)
(Thinking of shit that I kept deep inside)