Ethel Cain
Achyls
Syncopated rhythms
With the beat in your body
You took what you gave
Even though you knew just what it cost me
I loved and I loved and I loved
And I loved and I loved and I loved
And I loved and I loved
Then it stopped
Cause I’ve loved and I've loved
But this is the first time that I’ve lost

Gone are the days that I loved you
And fought all the battles you fled
I took myself by the throat
And choked the poison out
Until my eyes turned red

I’m in a danger zone
I’m on a battlefield
I hear the guns go off
They don’t care how you feel

I cry to god for help
Cause I don’t feel like me
At least when I look in the mirror
I still look like me
He is a force to be reckoned with
He’s a liar
He lost his youth
So he just fueled his desires
What is it that he seeks
If it’s not love he wants
He’ll set his city on fire
Just to feel warmth for once

They’re gonna rue what they did to him
They’re gonna cry
They’re gonna pay

Gone are the days that I loved you
And fought all the battles you fled
I took myself by the throat
And choked the poison out
Until my eyes turned red
Here comes the age I always feared
When I can’t blame it on my youth
So i’ll just bite my words and run off
Cause I won’t wait for you

I could be lies
I could be truth
I could be something you love and abuse
(I am just something you loved and abused)
I could be sick
I could be right
I could something you hold in the night
I could be brave
I could be scared
I could be wisdom when you’re unprepared
(It’s not my fault that you didn’t care)
I am not yours
Not anymore
It’s already hard to keep up off the floor
(I’ll light a match, burn a hole in the floor)
Gone are the days that I loved you
And fought all the battles you fled
I took myself by the throat
And choked the poison out
Until my eyes turned red
Here comes the age I always feared
When I can’t blame it on my youth
So I’ll just bite my words and run off
Cause I won’t wait for you
I’m going out to start a fight in the streets
And make this pain fall through
I bet you wonder if I think about you now and then
Oh, don’t you wish you knew