He said words knowing full well are suspect
Felt the burn in his lower intestine
I say get past the moment, let it subside

I don't know how I did, but I got here
Candlelit in my mind’s eye, but not clear
I know, I know
I know the truth is in-between

I don't want to feel it so I won't
Even when I lose it I’ll implode
Every lie is cyanide - a dose to keep the secret
I don't want to feel it so I don't

Sad song: I defect to write it
Dried tears - do your best to hide it
I can't handle your face in this moment
Quick find the exit
Quick find the exit

I don't want to feel it so I won't
Even when I lose it I'll implode
Every lie is cyanide - a dose to keep the secret
I don't want to feel it so I don’t

I don’t care
I don't care because they like me better when I did what they wanted
I don’t care
I don't care because I like me better when I am cold and reckless