it's so exhausting to be constantly at battle with your brain.

this is something nobody talks about —
long nights, fruitless attempts to
trick your brain into knowing
that it’s okay;

the idea that going just a couple minutes
without validation
could have you seeking self destruct.

the thought that your friends,
your loved ones, might worry
keeps you alive at times,
silent at others.

but it is so exhausting.
in the end,
it will all be worth it.