Breaking off from the world, after leaving home
At the age of 19
I didn’t want to consume my emotions
In my perspective
My trainee life was 100 out of 100
But sociophobia develops and my human relations is 0
I always prepare two masks
Hiding my true self
Behind the defensive image
I thoroughly hide myself
As if I’m a criminal
I couldn’t take a step outside the dorm
That was like a prison
Drifting away
Friends, family or anyone around me
They can’t remain beside me so they brush past me
The arrow still misses the target marked “human relations”

Pretending not to be lonely, pretending not to be in pain
Pointlessly pretending to be okay
Pointlessly pretending to be strong
Don’t climb over the wall I’ve built in front of me
I’m the island in this vast ocean, don’t abandon me