Racing in thoughts I see you
I don’t know what to say, no I can’t choose
Just lost in the ICU
Hospital wards don’t get better when you’re used through

Stuck on the percs, stuck in the rain
I can make it better, yeah you know I'd take all of your pain
Stuck on the hurt, stuck in my brain
Yeah I swear that your name is carved into my veins

I feel like I’m just caught in standby
Everyone is moving so fast in front of my eyes
Calm down, it will work, it will be fine
I just tell myself this so anxiety will die

Driving in the car, flip the lights on
See my life pass, what did I do that was wrong
Try to drown my sorrows till my liver failed me
Chews at my conscious, so I sink quietly

Messеd up, yeah I messed up
Yеah take another pill, sink into the couch and waste the day
Changed up, yeah I changed up
Yeah shaking in the hands you want my soul on demand, no

Messed up, yeah I messed up
Yeah blood on my cheeks from when you couldn’t stand
I left us, yeah I left us
Yeah putting pressure on my brain you make just go insane
Messages from you, intravenous in my veins
Flicking ash with the wrist, filling lungs with smoke is bliss
Spinning all around, yeah the walls start to breathe yeah
Opening up, let the shadows sink and swallow me

Skin my ghost and put it in a jar
Leave it on the shelf to collect dust and say you tried
Eyes snap open watching from afar
Feeling numb in the skin, push me back don’t let me in

Emotions what are these can't get attached
If I let you in, you’ll just leave me ransacked
The only pain I feel inside
Comes from you and leaves me tongue-tied

Leave the light on when it’s getting dark
I swear I'll be here when you wake up
Don’t show, yeah you just leave me on standby
Most days I feel that I’m the ghost that just died

Messed up, yeah I messed up
Yeah take another pill, sink into the couch and waste the day
Changed up, yeah I changed up
Yeah shaking in the hands you want my soul on demand, no

Messed up, yeah I messed up
Yeah blood on my cheeks from when you couldn’t stand
I left us, yeah I left us
Yeah putting pressure on my brain you make just go insane
Messed up, yeah I messed up
Yeah take another pill, sink into the couch and waste the day
Changed up, yeah I changed up
Yeah shaking in the hands you want my soul on demand, no

Messed up, yeah I messed up
Yeah blood on my cheeks from when you couldn’t stand
I left us, yeah I left us
Yeah putting pressure on my brain you make just go insane

Messed up, yeah I messed up
Yeah take another pill, sink into the couch and waste the day
Changed up, yeah I changed up
Yeah shaking in the hands you want my soul on demand, no