Will I get used to this
Always having dreams of where I die
Waking panicked half alive

Broken bones in my fingers
Crawling out of bed just to survive
To exhausted cannot fight

Don’t wanna be this don’t wanna be that
Yea this life is fucking mine
Get back and let me decide

Feels like im just cursed in this body
Hold a second give me five
Can I fucking feel alive

Cus I don’t understand this, I don’t understand this
I think the pressures getting through to me
I think im stuck in a place between
Im sick of begging fucking on my knees

Cus I would nеver wish this, would never wish this
On fucking anyonе who fucking breathes
You’ll live a life always filled with deceit
Now paranoid my only enemy is me
Sepha:

Tho nothing feels real online
I live there all the fuckin time
If only they really knew me
I’d hate to really know me
X2

But
Its as real as it is everywhere else

$lothboi:

I know I ain't the same mother fucker that I used to be
Now its white wine sippin just to put myself to sleep
Fuck, if you saw, memories, you’d be under deep
Thankful I’m alive, but it hurts, fuck I cannot breathe

I know I ain't the same mother fucker that I used to be
Now its white wine sippin just to put myself to sleep
Fuck, if you saw memories
You’d be 6 feet deep
And knocking on the gates of hell

I AM BREAKING
SOMEONE SAVE ME
RIV AND SEPH, GOT MY BACK, IMA MAKE IT
I CAN SHAKE THIS
FEELING OF ABASEMENT
KNOWING I GOT HOMIES I CAN TRUST, IMA MAKE IT