[$LOTHBOI]
I’m walking down this path of bodies
Screaming with every step
The guilt from suicide attempts be scratching at my head
I’m a mess
I am blessed
And I cannot fucking stress
That if I pulled a trigger years ago I would’ve missed the best

Time of my life
I see a glimpse of the light

I am healing from the trauma that’s engrained in the mind
I won the fentanyl roulette while watching my brother die
I got problems in my head but I be healing with time

So I mind the pain
And mute the thoughts
Lately
The future bright, my past is dark
Shady, the moon is lit, I feel alive
Safety
This weight on me, its lightening

So I mind the pain
And mute the thoughts
Lately
The future bright, my past is dark
Shady, the moon is lit, I feel alive
Safety
This weight on me, its lightening
[Rivilin]
So won't you won't you take me apart
It's just this journey is so long I'm missing a heart
It’s just anxiety, leaves me here in the dark
We close our doors to our homes as we don't give a fuck

But we just know that it's not good for any of us
I watch my friends giving up said that they weren't enough
It's like this life that you love is just a bit fucked up
I fucking love it, I hate it, I can't fucking take this anymore

Its when you find the city’s dark as the abyss always glaring at your back
Waiting for the opportunity when your mind fades to black
Shove a knife into your spleen, your immune systems a fiend
Cut it out, cut it out, I know they love to hear my screams

Struggle up on my feet this world’s crumbling over me
Watch despair in my eyes fill my veins up with your lies
These friends said they had my side, where were they I nearly died
In that burnt house on the hill, the sky opened up, had his fill

I tried to climb down but I fell, these rocks filled with laughter they tell
Stories of how I broke my bones and left me to struggle alone
Watch the crows just pick at me, open up my insides let them feed
What's left of my aspirations, don't dig deep I'm feeling anxious
Is this what it's like down in hell, maybe I'm here I couldn’t tell
I'm already just suffering the light above is smothering
The way I want to talk and breathe maybe this is a sign to leave
And just let go of everyone who only loves with deciete

So won't you won't you take me apart
It's just this journey is so long I'm missing a heart
It’s just anxiety, leaves me here in the dark
We close our doors to our homes as we don't give a fuck

But we just know that it's not good for any of us
I watch my friends giving up said that they weren't enough
It's like this life that you love is just a bit fucked up
I fucking love it, I hate it, I can't fucking take this anymore