[Intro] [$LOTHBOI]
Why do I seek
What I know will destroy
I chase only vices
With your hand on my throat

[Rivilin]
You carry razor blades
On the tip of your tongue
With a glass-eyed smile
I thought here id burn up

I tried my best to be something for you
But we both know I'm not enough
I see the way that you stare at them
Like they're the one you really want

I got this fever down in hell when I was running searching for my soul
I met a devil down here, he placed a curse on me, and now you're all I want
Doesn't help that this dеvil mocks me in every way that I see fit to livе
Doesn't help that I'm disgusted by myself and the person you've become

Thought burning my flesh would help me cope with the heat down here in this place
The longer I stayed here the more I got comfortable with the person I became
I could of used a friend back then but I guess I was blinded by your endless hate
The only one I have to blame is myself for the way that I just can't relate
I've become numb to the way you talk
Yeah numb, to myself you called it love
Yeah but this ain't that
Cus you’re the reason I want to be numb

I feel discontent
I'm numb, but all this hate was made from love
But yea this ain't that so ill just run
Until I can be loved

[$LOTHBOI]
Riv been hypnotized
By a pretty face
Red lips hide the tongue of a fucking snake

I ain't sleep in days
The mirror looking drained
Waking up, realize, that we fucking changed

Where the fuck did I go wrong, who the fuck am I
I ain't really recognize, that person in the mirror died

Used to skate around with homies now I chase a high
Rivi used to save me now I'm passing him the fucking wine

Chasing vices
Living dangerous
Think I fucking like it
Took a pillie
From a stranger
Man I'm rolling dices

Rivilin
He on a run
I know I lost my guidance
What the fuck am I gun do, I'm spiraling I like it

Rivilin
Is this worth what we losing?
Spiraling
Feels so good but hurts the same

Rivilin
Is this worth what we losing?
Spiraling
Feels so good but hurts the same

[Rivilin]
I've become numb to the way you talk
Yeah numb, to myself you called it love
Yeah but this ain't that
Cus you’re the reason I want to be numb

I feel discontent
I'm numb, but all this hate was made from love
But yea this ain't that so ill just run
Until I can be loved