[Intro]
Scaryplain

[Chorus]
Life is only understood backwards
And the only way to keep going is to move forwards
When it comes to friends, it's like closure
Oh my, I ain't got either

Life is only understood backwards
And the only way to keep going is to move forwards
When it comes to friends, it's like closure
Oh my, I ain't got either

[Verse 1]
People think I'm rapping just for the content
Nah, I'm rapping to be content
Chronic spectator of my thoughts within
Skull feeling like a trash bin
Wanna just put a grenade up to my head and pull the pin
Off the top on the mic like a rhode
Trying not to erode as I consciously take this high road
My feelings I wrote, I ain't albino, but I got albino in my brain
If you know then you know

[Bridge]
Why am I going through it
Why am I going through this
I don't know why I feel the way I do, I do
[Verse 2]
Different strokes for different folks
This life is full of lessons, I'm always takin notes
I suppose back on the Rez, I learned something valuable
Had a Sweat lodge, trip out
Peace pipe got whipped out
Hearing hyms and call outs
Hearing language I can't recall
We drank a substance from a bowl
Then I looked outside all I saw was rain, I said "Oh, no"
I said my items were gonna get damaged, but Whoopi law bad hand
Said that they could be replaced, but not the moment
Turns out it never even rained and my dad who was there
Was dead within a few days

[Bridge]
Feeling so vile
Feeling so violent
Feeling so vile
Feeling so violent

[Chorus]
Life is only understood backwards
And the only way to keep going is to move forwards
When it comes to friends, it's like closure
Oh my, I ain't got either
Life is only understood backwards
And the only way to keep going is to move forwards
When it comes to friends, it's like closure
Oh my, I ain't got either

[Verse 3]
I don't know where I went wrong
What the hell is going on
I don't what I am on
I don't know where I went wrong

The drugs I took were like plywood on the windows of businesses
Just a temporary fix for my mental illnesses
Nothings really changed though
Saying I'll stop or start tomorrow is why a lot of people are dead
By tomorrow

This is the last time, this is rhe last line
Feelin like cyclops with this third eye
Sometimes I wanna hang like them shoes on the power lines

Shared a laugh with a homie then in a time span of less than 20
I seen his dead body in the alley homie never even got to live out his 20's
All he saw in his last moments was a barrel of a 40
He got hit several times while sipping on his 40
Ironic that now we pour out a 40 as a gesture for my homie
Some people want me to rap about positivity
I hear you homie but I really need tranquility
Sure I'm happy I got a roof over my head and working utilities
But my own head isn't a very good working utility