[Intro]
Yeah
Fuck, I mean
Yeah

[Verse]
Lately I've been working through the night
Doc say I 'gotta rest more
Anxiety hit a new high
Don't know why I'm so stressed for
Don't know why I'm so alone again
I've been drinking on my own again
Don't why I'm so distant from the world
I can feel it all closing in (Like, fuck)
Tell me why I feel nothing's changed
Tell me why it all feels the same
All the demons still in my head
Can't push 'em out nothing numbs the pain
Now I say we 'gotta trust the plan
Feel like no one really understands what I'm going through
Still a kid, still wearing shoes I gotta grow into
These days I don't smile no more
These days I pretend to
These days I've been so numb
Look at all the shit that I've been through
These days people leaving so fast
I don't know who to turn to
These days full of lessons
But I guess it's just some shit I 'gotta learn through (Yeah)
I'm just hoping I don't break
I'm just hoping if there's a God that he sees past the mistakes
Music shit is so stressful
So many nights I almost gave it up
So many nights I spent so depressed
Thinking I would never be great enough
Then I had a nervous breakdown 2017
I ain't know who to turn to
May of 2018 I'm back in the hospital 'tryna work through
All this pent up anxiety
I want to live but it hurts too
When the people that you thought would never leave
Are the first ones to desert you
But I'm numb now
These days I don't give a fuck
Built a wall to keep my feelings in
All they did was [?] my demons up
You so worried 'bout me 'changin
Promised you I'll be the real me
Promised you I'll always be the same
Even if it fucking kills me
Even if it fucking kills me