Fuck....

[Verse 1]
I'm broken and I’m falling apart
A born sinner with broken dreams, and a shattered heart
They want the pain and the truth
Tell me where do I start
Cause I can't name a year in my life that didn't play its part
They see the picture
But don’t get the art
They got me lost
Man I'm in the dark
I'm reaching out and grabbing roses
Man these thorns are sharp
Blood leaking down my wrist
I guess they really left they mark
I miss you mom!
But what can I say?
I'm mad as hell that you ain't here
And chose to break away
I won't ignore the truth
Cause the truth come with the pain
Its always been a bumpy road
But this is something I can't take
I wanna see you one more time
Wanna look into yo eyes
Want you to tell me stop smoking
Cause I'm stupid when I’m high
Wanna hear you say you love me
Right before you say goodbye
Want you to tell me drive safe
And don’t be speeding when I drive
Cause life's to short
And we risk it all the time
You was here now you gone
But i promise I’ll be fine
Ina cycle of depression
Crawling to the finish line
If you looking down mama
Know your babyboy trying
Yea your babyboy trying
Yea...
Fuck..
Yea your Babyboy trying
Yea
Look'
And I just wanna see the light
But it always runs away
My dad calling now but I choose to push away
I know the love is real but to me is seems fake
Cause why it take losing her for you to see what's at stake
Damn
And I just wanna take it all away
I take these pills and go to sleep so I don't feel the pain
Uncle ain’t talking to me
Got me feeling a type a way
Cause how you ain't around
When I need you more then ever mayne
It's like I'm so alone but I'm not alone
Been starving since a kid
They ain't ever throw a bone
Its hard to claim a home
When I ain't ever had home
Push the ones I love away
So in the end I'll die alone
Fuck..
But then there's you
You heal the hurt
But at the same time you cause the hurt
For what its worth
Give you my all if we could make this work
I've seen you at worst, And never changed my view
I always put you first
Damn...
I just wanna heal the pain
Put some Phora in my system
And drink my thoughts away
Deep inside I'm not the same
I lost my mom, it made me change
I put one in the chamber
And almost blew my brain
Got the news and I cried
I fucking died inside
Feelings on a roller coaster
Got me traumatized
I'm so tired of the fake
So tired of the lies
I look in my daughters eyes
And wanna break and fucking cry
Cause I just wanna die
But I can't leave her behind
To me this ain't right
I need God by my side
And I pray every night
But I never get a sign
I'm alone on this ride
And that's why I count the time
And watch it fly by
I don't even ask why
I blame nobody but myself for why I'm dying inside
But I
Guess all I really need Is help
But in the end man you can blame my pride
Yea
Said in the end man you could blame my pride
Yea
Said in the end you could blame my ....