​i9bonsai
​trauma
[Intro: dedbrat]
I can't get you off my mind
Is that alright? Is that alright?
'Cause you always wanna leave me behind

[Verse 1: dedbrat]
I cannot stop thinking of the past
And it makes me wonder if we're ever gonna last
But my heart, you stole it, yeah, you finessed
Wonder if we're just moving way too fast
You seem to give up on all of our future plans
Do you even think they were written in the sands
'Cause it seems like it's so easy for you to make 'em twist and bend
And when you say "forever" you just mean until our end
Why doеs love always wanna fuckin' haunt me?
And my life doеsn't make it any more easy
I feel like everyone always ends up cheating
How do I know you'll turn out any differently?
I'm so sorry for always overthinking (Woah, oh)
I wish you didn't give up on reassuring me
I guess I can't stop second guessing
Why can't I just trust you the way you trust me?

[Verse 2: i9bonsai]
Could you tell me, tell me what I'm doin' wrong?
Does it feel like your plans were way too long?
I don't know how to get to that, I'm so lost
Would you ever try again if you knew the cost?
I get it, I get what you're so mad about
But that doesn't mean that you can even change the past
I don't wanna talk if you talk bad
[?], it's like a curse
I try to pull myself together piece by piece
But I keep failing, I go back and erase
You can try to accept it or clown me
It's not easy, you always wanna leave