[B.K.P.]
Yeah, I know. Sometimes shit is just fucking difficult, you know, better days are coming just wait

I'm wondering why I'm here, thinking every night
Trying to find a way to better my life
And I know that these words keep hurting
But I don't know which way to go

Yeah, this the illest shit I've wrote, I've said it once, I'll say it again
Do you understand what it's like to act so high when you feel so low and this site is where you vent?
Man I do, can't face facts, I look at her but she don't look back
I'm sick of this, don't know if I'll come back

I'm wondering why I'm here, thinking every night
Trying to find a way to better my life
And I know that these words keep hurting
But I don't know which way to go

Man are you sick of this? The pain I feel ridiculous
All she wrote, I don't know what keeps me afloat as I’m sinkin slow
I don't even know myself, trying to write rhymes cause I’ve been feelin low
I think that I'ma call her, lectures that I shouldn't like her
Three artists I look up to, I'm bipolar as fuck so fuck you
Peoples mind change, I'm strange, my thoughts sometimes, there so insane
"Yo bro I wanna try this?" I said to my brother
I really liked this, smoked so much green this dream of mine doesn't feel like another
But wait a minute, here's what they call a recover
Them thoughts you said to your step mother um yeah, you must need to return back to the hospital
I'm a gift and a curse, that what I call it, shit man it hurts, these pills got me hypnotic
And every verse I've written on this might as well be my first...

I'm wondering why I'm here, thinking every night
Trying to find a way to better my life
And I know that these words keep hurting
But I don't know which way to go

I've thought death, I've thought of hell
So many tears I've shed for myself
You know my good, you know my bad, more bad than good, did you hear that?
Oh damn it, that damn thought is fucking back
I still get sad, I feel like that's not hard to manage
Tell me you care I heard it all before why do I always feel abandoned?
I think of myself as a sinner, suppose to be a winner
I've fell then got back up had to fight my father ain't raise no quitter
Please don't Breon, man up! You need to fucking man up
Come on don't you slip up, we all some days get stuck in bad weather
Maybe you're right, I wrote my mama a letter
We just can't be together, but it's whatever
I'll love you forever, don't you act like I never
I got demons that haunt me still there taking me down
I've seen cash, I've been poor, I've been high and I've been low
All the friends and things I've let go, so cherish what you have and keep it close
I don't cry I'll be alright, I've made mistakes so sky's the limit
You see them stars? That's God showing you he's not that far
You just gotta remind it, there will always be that dark cloud but it's not who you are
Just keep your head up, and raise the bar!

I'm wondering why I'm here, thinking every night
Trying to find a way to better my life
And I know that these words keep hurting
But I don't know which way to go

Man, it's been a journey. Just keep your head up no matter what. There's always good in that bad just like there's bad in the good you know what I'm saying. Don't give up on yourself now. Keep your head up man