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VERSE 01:
I'm supposed to be the soldier, who should never blow his composure
Even though she puts me to the brink of my shoulders
I ain't ever supposed to show it, she ain't supposed to know it
Even if it means goin to toe to toe with a ho
It don't matter about that, I wouldn't ever drag her into that
I ask someone to be an example, before this something I can't handle
I need to be her leader, she looks for me to guide her
If someone mouth ever popped off, I swear I would of dropped 'em
That cheatin shit, I tried to stop it, it was too late to stop it
There's a certain line you just don't cross and you crossed it
I heard you say she was a whore and I just lost it
It was crazy, that shit was way beyond some talkin
And even though that shit is over I feel like I lost it
I spent to much energy on it, honestly I'm exhausted
And I'm so caught up in it, that I forgot what I was fightin
This ain't what I'm in a relationship, it's not why I got into it
This was never my object, for someone to get hurt
Why would I love somethin and treat it like dirt
This wasn't my intentions, my intentions were you
I went 6 months without ever mentioning who
And that was just outta respect, for all those 6 months
Plus I told myself to shut my own damn mouth, this is just somethin I could keep
So I did, I just sat back, watched and gritted my teeth
While your leavin me, down talkin to that man
I'd literally save your life, like fuck it I am your man
This is life, and I thought you would have been my wife
I'm still figuring this shit out, it may happen at any minute, because
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VERSE 02:
There used to be a time when, I could say that you were mine
I wouldn't worry about you cryin and dyin
But now it's getting worse, now, once you cheat on someone
The shit gets crazy as fuck, it ain't just actions no more is it?
It's a whole new ball game, you fuckin people and you ain't even carin
I actually tried to stop myself from cryin
Me and my therapist had sat and started talkin, told about my problems and what be happenin
He asked me to stop before somethin ruined my life and I started snappin
At him, started yappin at 'em on how he is crappin
Fuck it, I'm a shit head, I should of listened to him before I started yappin
Meanwhile my attentions where in a whole new other direction
I didn't want you to know about session, because it would lead to destruction
I wish we could start over, I swear you would be on my shoulder
I try to say I'm sorry but I know, I know you don't care for my story
But I know I fucked this relationship up, that's how I was raised up
That's apart of my publication, that what made me famous
Now the owner of it has no more explainin for me
Well fuck it, that motherfucka can get some too, fuck her then
But I'm so busy being pissed off, I don't stop to think
That I just put you and your family to point of brink
And I just stand there and think, I'm such a shitty prick
I still have a soldier that's on the front line
That's willin to die for me as soon as she get her orders
Never to extort me, strictly to show you still support we
And I try to yell it out in my rap or in one of my chorus's
To show you I love you back and let you know how important you is
To have a girl up in my corner
Your love to me is worth more than any girl is
But I ain't tryna have you cryin or dyin up in a corner
I ain't worth it, I can't think of a perfecter way to to word it
Than to just say that I love you too much to see you go
I'll walk away it all 'fore I let it go any further
But don't get it twisted, it's not not plea that I'm coppin
I'm just willin to say goodbye to my life before it starts droppin
So stop talkin off with your jaws cause frankly I'm sick of hearin
I'm not going to let your broken heart rest on my conscience cause
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