Zay (Rapper)
Big Brother From Hell / A New Friend
[Big Brother From Hell: Zay, Billy]
*Running footsteps*
*Heavy breathing*
*Falling* Aghh!
Ghh! *Footsteps*
You— No, you get the fuck away from me! You stay away from me!
Who are you? Why are you following me?
That leg looks pretty beat up, man. You sure you're able to walk on that?
Get the fuck away from me, what are you doing!? Get away!
Hehe. Calm down, calm down. Look, I just want to help
Help with what? Wha— Who are you, why are you following me?
I'm... A friend
Fuck...
Look buddy
Fucking talk to me
I know shit's been rough for you lately
Get the fuck away from me!
Lotta people been doing you dirty. Don't you want to get back at them?
You st— How do you know tha—
Don't you want to talk all that repressed rage out on the people who wronged you?
I ca- No, no, I can't do that, that's wrong
I can help with that
I can't, no shut up!
All you have to do... is let me in
You stay the fuck away from me, what do you— What, what... What do you mean let you in? Wh-What does that mean?
Shhhhh, I can help you
Fu- what the fuck, help me with what? What do you— wh... Let you into what? What do you, what do you want me to let you into?
Your mind
What the fuck? You're fucking crazy, what do you mean my- no you're insane you—
You provide me a new home...
New, new home? What do you mean a new home?
Listen, I can't exist in this physical world for much longer on my own. Unless I have a body to keep myself alive, I'll die. And when I die you'll die with me. Come on, you're a smart kid
What kind of help are you going to give me?
Mmm, what do you mean?
Well, y-y-you said you were gonna help me to take my life back, what do you, what do you mean?
You're soft. You let everyone around you walk all over you. Your own self worth is determined by how unhappy you're willing to make yourself for those around you. I can change that. I can give you the edge you need to succeed and be happy again. The aggression, the pride, the ambition. Interested?
Yeah. I'm interested
That's good. Now, shake my hand, and the deal is done
No, fuck you I'm not shaking anything yet
Why not?
How does this work? How does— you said you're gonna enter my mind? What are you gonna fuckin' control me now? Am I gonna lose myself? Are you gonna hurt me, what, what is this?
No, absolutely no pain to you, no involuntary actions, and as far as you're concerned, I'll just be a figment of your imagination. At best, a split personality that you come to grow pretty fond of. You'll just be regular old you, with a little bit of an extra edge to it. All I ask is that you allow me to front whenever I feel necessary. Your vessel will become my vessel, so I'd like, as little harm to be followed as possible, and judging from the look of you right now, you're not the best person for that job. I'll let you be you until you need me. Does that sound fair?
Yeah, yeah that sounds fair
Good, I'm glad we finally been able to come to an agreement. Now shake my hand and watch your life change
Not yet. I have one more question for you. If I'm gonna let you into my mind, I need to know your name
N-no one's ever asked me my name before. But it's Billy
(Music slowly fading in)
Hey, Billy
Hi

[A New Friend]
[Verse 1: Billy]
Hello young man, looks like you need some help
I'll be your new older brother from Hell
I'll be your guardian, keepin' you well
You need some help lookin' after yourself
Just from the way that you hurt, I can tell
Let me inside of your mind, how's that sound?
I'm not sure if you believe me, but I could've broken you when your heart out of a spell
Sayin' the things you wish you could yell
Helpin' you up every time that you fell
Pickin' the scents that you wish you could smell
I have no name but I'm ringin' a bell

See I know you been hurt, feelin' outcast
Hide the pain all inside of a mouth mask
Let me in, disregard all of my past
Disregard all the spells that which I cast
Turn away from the world and the light, bask
In redemption I'll take back your life
Replace with happiness where there was strife
While all alone you are never alone because I'll be here with you 'till we lose our life
I'll take your darkest days and make 'em bright
I'll be your angel, wishin' you well
Sincerely, your new older brother from Hell
[Verse 2: Zay, Billy, Both]
Show me, please
Everything that I, I could need
Show me, please
I'm losing my mind so
Show me, please
Show me everything I could need
Show me, please
I'm all out of time so

I'm not sure if I'll be down for this
You mean to tell me that I'll get my crown for this?
Who's to say that if I say yes to your deal that I won't wake up one morning and find I'm drownin'
This is a decision I gotta make
I don't really care if you know I ache
I don't really care if you say it's safe
'Cause I wanna know what it's gonna take
And tell me how dangerous will it be?
And you'll only front if you think I need?
I'm tryin' to think but it's hard to see
Envisioning you as a part of me
What if you're right and it's for the best?
There's things that I'd like to get off my chest
Some things that I wish I could repress
You mean to tell me you'll hear the stress?
You mean to tell me that I'll be fine?
Standin' and walkin' again with pride?
Well if you promise and you're bein' honest I guess I accept it, where do I sign?
Where do I sign?
Now let me in
I give in
My life is yours, your life is mine