[Intro]
I just wanna feel something

[Verse]
Open a text and I shouldn’t have read it
I'm lost in my thoughts, I'd rather be dead
I'm thinkin' too much, all that shit go straight to my head
Maybe it's nonsense, or maybe I'm toxic, maybe I lost it
I gave it my best, and she want someone else
I likely caused it
Life ain't a remote, I can't pause it
I can't pause it
I wish I can skip to where it ends
Is it still gonna end up with us being friends?
Please don't be mad, I'm just writin' how I feel
I broke into pieces, assumin' I'm too numb to feel
Honestly, I hate cryin' into a mic in order to prove I'm real
Without music I'm a broken record
Always testin' my girl to see if she's a lie detector
When she tries to help me I just reject her
I put my life out there to showcase like a TV projector
Sometimes I snoop and research my people
Hopin' I don't find somethin' true
I just wanna be equal
3 a.m., havin' panic attacks
Wishin' my happiness will last
I ruin relationships 'cause I treat it like it's my past
When I see things I didn't wanna know, my brain starts to move fast
I don't go out no more 'cause I get pushed to the sidewalk like trash
A voice in my head tells me to stop it
But I run and run from the situation, I guess I'll drop it
Knowin' I'm still holdin' a grudge
I hate myself, I've had enough
I've had enough
[Outro]
I've had enough
I hate myself
Should not run
I hate myself