[Intro]
And I put that on the nine
I done cried a thousand times
I done cried a thousand times
And I put that on the nine
I done cried a thousand times
I done cried a thousand times
Look

[Chorus]
This ain't how it 'posed to be, everything don't go as planned
You were 'posed to be my heart but you just bring me pain instead
This shit got me over edge, they think I'm crazy in the head
Kill my problems with the weed but I just want the Percs instead
Why I'm never good enough? Stupid must be across my head
It be like Jdot a Playstation, turn the game on and play it
I just wanna give up, my grandma used to say keep praying
But I done lost a lot of brothers so it's hard to hold my head

[Verse]
Run the trap with the reefer, he too fast, I can't beat him
But I'm prepared, I'm never scared when they come out I meet him
Just tryna live for my people but where they at when I need 'em?
And I got n***as fighting charges, pray to God that they beat 'em
Hit her once then delete her, can't trust a ho, they ain't keepers
Showed that bitch a sign of love and she gon' feel like you need her
You ain't my kid, we ain't equal, I'm dropping pills in two liters
I got a son growing up, gotta be breathing to teach him
But they don't see it how I see it, what the fuck I'm sorry for?
All my life I had to fight, it's like you kicked me to the door
There's some shit I wanna know 'cause all I really got is hope
You tryna get me off my [?], gotta be focused, I can't loath
And I put that on the nine, I done cried a thousand times
Phone full of sad songs but I done wrote a thousand rhymes
Get in the booth and spit the truth but all these other rappers lying
I lost Malik, it cut me deep, it's like I died a thousand times
[Bridge]
Like I died a thousand times
Like I died a thousand times
Like I died a thousand times
Like I died a thousand times
I done cried a thousand times

[Chorus]
This ain't how it 'posed to be, everything don't go as planned
You were 'posed to be my heart but you just bring me pain instead
This shit got me over edge, they think I'm crazy in the head
Kill my problems with the weed but I just want the Percs instead
Why I'm never good enough? Stupid must be across my head
It be like Jdot a Playstation, turn the game on and play it
I just wanna give up, my grandma used to say keep praying
But I done lost a lot of brothers so it's hard to hold my head

[Outro]
Cried a thousand times
Thought I was on your mind
And I put that on the nine
I done cried a thousand times