The gin catches in my throat
As I get caught in the throes of passion replaying in my mind
And I know you don't wanna hear this
But knowing you belong to someone else destroys me

So here I sit
Throwing my life away
Piece by piece
Broken shards of a broken heart

I'm not supposed to say
But I will anyway
If only to myself
If only to myself
If there was any other way
To begin to kill this pain
I would
I certainly would!

If I see you on the street
And I begin to feel the pain
As I'm sure I will
I'll just say "I'm happy."
And you may catch a glimpse of the hell in my head
But just pay no mind
I'm fine

I'm not supposed to say
But I will anyway
If only to myself
If only to myself
If there was any other way
To begin to kill this pain
I would
I certainly would!

I'm like a Jack-O-Lantern
Toothy smiles on the outside
While burning on the inside

I'm like a Jack-O-Lantern
Toothy smiles on the outside
While burning on the inside

I'm not supposed to say
But I will anyway
If only to myself
If only to myself
If there was any other way
To begin to kill this pain
I would
I certainly would!
I'm not supposed to say
But I will anyway
If only to myself
If only to myself
If there was any other way
To begin to kill this pain
I would
I certainly would!