[Intro: Nicki Tha Great]
I carry everybody I need time to think
I work for everybody I need time to shrink
Those demons in my body they’re resurfacing
But if I keep you close beside me I could never sink
I’m sorry I’m not perfect but I’m trying
There’s no way I’m worth it but Im trying
To be the one you need when your dying darlin
To give him everything I’m not lying on it
I need think to think
I need time to shrink
Those demons in my body they’re resurfacing
I keep you close beside me I could never sink
[Verse 1: Jay Honest]
Somebody save me from all that I think
My brain is my enemy I’m on the brink of destruction
Feels like my life has erupted
Full of corruption, Like I have nothing
Why do I feel
Lost and it kills
Feelin' no thrill
Dying for real
Dying to feel
Happy again
I’m all alone
I ain’t got friends
Searching for something that’s real
I’m losing everyone aiming for fame n a deal
Losing my mind on the daily I feel like
Apologizing for the wrong that I deal
Sorry to Luc I know u tried to best
Sorry to friends that I left on read
N sorry lately only word that I said
Sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry again
You know
Sometimes you just
Gotta man up
And apologize for the things you’ve done
I’m saying sorry to mama
Sorry to my Babymama’s
All of my wrongs
I gotta write all my wrongs
Put every ounce of my pain in these songs
Put every ounce of my pain in this love
I gotta stop it enough is enough
Therapy seeming like my only option
I got change she’s all that I got n
I been sober for a while
I did it all for my child
Now I have 3 (wow)
For them I’d travel for miles
Did it in college no I really I travelled to be around
Heaven and earth I am bound
Finding they love is the best I have found
Found in my life
I got a wife
I got these kids
That I don’t see at night
I hate em nights
Up all night
Up in my head I can’t sleep when I fight
Fighting myself
Fighting my brain
I’m in a battle I’m going insane
Dark or the light
I do not know
I was a teen
Stuck in the snow
Canada cold
Up in the north
They try to knock me down I’m an unstoppable force
I got my moms on my side
When I was a kid she was sick man I’m happy that she alive
Mama she my ride or die
I no that we fight but I promise mama it’ll be alright
I ain’t Gon let this depression take over me
Slowly I feel it this sadness destroying me
Missing my brother the source to my pain is grief
I gotta breathe heaven knows that I need relief
Yeah
You know im trying my best out here
For every single one of you
And myself
Honest