[Verse 1]
Level 18, I’m starting to learn that all the grass ain’t green
And all them glitters ain’t gold, lost everybody but my bro’s
Talking ice on my wrist but my heart’s more cold
I built my bridge, most of them don’t hold
Like the London bridge when they fell so low
But i know there’s a door for everyone that close
Like what’s 200,000 on Toxicc if I can’t repeat it?
And what’s the point of MJ if, depression, I can’t beat it?
I keep a death grip on moments I close my eyes and seize it
I failed so many times so why they see mе as their leader?
I feel likе a whiny bitch every time I try to show my open soul
How do I get peace or a piece of mind when mine ain’t even whole?
I doubt I’d even be alive if I wasn’t leaving home
I know it’s hard sometimes but I got to try to believe in hope

[Bridge]
‘Cause that’s all that’s keeping me going
Is knowing I’m growing and time isn’t slowing
I just let my bro in, he told me I’m flowing
I told em I know man, but what is it showing
Don’t feel like I’m going to places I wanted
My whole life I’m throwing away I got no plan
He told me be patient, don’t do nothing crazy
This shit ain’t no race and they seeing your greatness

[Hook]
And if they see too late, dont say it was a waste, it’s yourself you should amaze
I promise I’ll get it straight, I’m not even trynna date but I know what you’re looking for
It’s not me (x6)

[Verse 2]
So I throw my bandana on
Late night, I’m out here walking alone
Lot of thoughts in my head, couldn’t rot away in bed
So my headphones sat upon my dome
Heart broke like my voice in mouth foam
Get drunk, voicemail on her house phone
Sappy shit but I said my vows wrong
I been feeling this way for how long?
Another mistake I put on my heart
My poisonous words shot it out a dart
Lover’s alert every time I start
Don’t fall for the flirting my head is hard
I’m bad at both science and women talk
So chemistry ain’t comin’ Easy doc
Another door opens when one’ll shut
Forgotten my manners and how to knock

[Bridge]
Only kinda good at rapping about cheeks I’m clapping when she sit in my lap and
And we go more rounds than Conor would tap in
When I started to cry but I still was laughing
And she turned to me and asked “baby what happened?”
I’m just too impassioned don’t let it be a distraction
We can get back to action, but my mind would imagine
What would I do if we had a subtraction?

[Hook]
And if they see too late, dont say it was a waste, it’s yourself you should amaze (I did not think ahead)
I promise I’ll get it straight, I’m not even trynna date but I know what you’re looking for
It’s not me (x6)