Don't want to feel better
No one's ever going to love me like that again
I don't want to get over you
I want to sit with you in bed
I don't want to feel better
I'll give anything to miss you again
I don't want to get over it
I want to get under it instead

A book sits on top on clean and messy blankets
On a bed that fucking creeks at night when I get in it
Late at night I'm chugging Gatorade and someones breaking up
And I crack up because I know I'll never know just want to say

I'm a Communist
A Terrorist
A MPDG thot
Or I'm a sad girl
And it's one man living out the shitty Christian plot of twilight
Or the Bible
Or The lover by Duras
Or I'm just really fucking selfish and really fucking lost
But someone loved me
Someone fucking loved me
Someone fucking loved me
And I fucking loved them too
God Damn it I was worth something
I fucking leaned something
I had my cake and I ate it
And it ate me too
I don't want to feel better
I kept your liquor in a suitcase underneath my bed
And we drank it to go out or just stay in or to feel sad
But in a hot way
In a way I'll fucking never have again
The sun has begun to set
I'm a socialist, Marxist‚ libertarian slut
I'm an awkward teenage virgin
I and swear I kind of laugh a lot in bed
Other times I cry or don't make noise at all
I'd give my life to have a room that feels that small

'Cause someone loved me
Someone fucking loved me
Someone fucking loved me
I loved them too
God Damn it I was worth something
I fucking earned something
I had a right to die
A right to live
A right to choose too
And God no
Of course I don't want to feel better

Can you fucking imagine

No one's every going to love me like that again
I don't want to get over it
I want to rip the stars to shreds
I don't want to feel better
I mean of course it hurt
I mean of course it fucking hurt
It hurt like nothing in the world sometimes
And I was super scared
And we were all a train wreck
And also somehow making it
I think I may have died there twice
And I would do it all again
I'm a nihilist‚ a soldier‚ an OCD machine
Or I'm a healthy baby girl who traded sunshine for disease
But when my head hit my sheet pillow
I could tell I had a heart
And I want to tear this fascist milky way apart

'Cause someone loved me
Someone fucking loved me
On all my filthily life I loved someone I barley knew
God Damn it I was worth something
I fucking leaned something
And it felt better in my mouth than fresh warm food

I guess I loved you
I guess I really loved you
All my life I loved someone I barley knew
And now your over there
And I'm way over here
What am I gonna do?
I don't want to feel better
No one's ever going to love me like that again
I don't want to get over it
I want to sit with you in bed
I don't want to feel better
I don't want to feel better