These nights got me looking to find meaning deep inside my head
I think I’m losing to myself, it’s not what I have dreamt of
I think I’m trying to find meaning in the words I knew
I think I’m failing at most everything I’m fuckin screwed

Y'know there’s a monster deep inside my head it’s
Leaving me to rot, guess I’ve made my bed
I never thought my life would end easy
I was a punk kid
Never give a fuck kid
Never knew what love is
Never had a conscious
Said give it up kid, You’ll never hide your scars on your tattered bleeding arms
Get me a fucking DNR

These thoughts mislead me
Hoping that someone will test me
To put a bullet in my head it’s easy
Mixing pills cuz they don't phase me, it’s changed me

Yet I keep breathing
Hoping that one day you’ll see me
Trying to live my life with meaning
But my face is running dry from all these tears up in my eyes
Got a gun to my head screaming end me

Doctor doctor please
Give me a pill that will just ease
All of my pain and my disease
Don't let it end with a bullet in my head

Doctor doctor please
Don't let me bleed out on the street
Give me a pill that will just ease
Don't let it end with a bullet in my head

It’s kinda funny how a thought can bring you to the edge
Leaving me to dangle off that bridge
If I knew you then would I have taken that leap?
Would i have admitted defeat
Why the fuck did it not kill me?
If there’s a god why do I still need
An answer to maintain a heart beat
Yet I keep praying
Hoping that someone will save me
Thinking that my life’s been hazy
Mixing pills cuz they don't phase me, it’s changed me

Yet I keep breathing
Hoping that one day you’ll see me
Trying to live my life with meaning
But my voice is running dry all the times i’ve asked you why
Put a gun to my head screaming save me

Doctor doctor please
Give me a pill that will just ease
All of my pain and my disease
Don't let it end with a bullet in my head

Doctor doctor please
Don't let me bleed out on the street
Give me a pill that will just ease
Don't let me end with a bullet in my head