13. Butterflies and Headaches

(JLynn)
Pulling away from commitment, enjoyment ain’t likely
A cry for my help, said this mindset is frightening
The wrong investment is embarrassing to find a paralyzed rhyme
My time is all I have and when I spend it on a rap
The lack of listeners builds a plan to escape confinement
Liberation at its greatest, if I advise complete arrangements to erase
Hesitation. If it ain’t today I’m taking to long, but its all a ticking time bomb
Better of involved with a logical plot to lock in all I got to knock your head off your neck
Fully armed with a boom box, rocking positive messages
Live and direct, arise to impress
Apathetic to the judgment
Cultivate a plan of action with the sum of success

(XXXIX EP Skit: Maxx 39 and JLynn)

(Maxx 39)
Mental nourishment was what I was in search of
Lost peace with depression, but gained peace with inertia
Didn’t ask for anything that was poured upon my plate
Justifying the purpose of how easily I can break
Like an empty gas tank I was filled to the tee with hate
Reflecting on my action’s overthinking every mistake
I was born to be attacked, scorned to be exact
Torn between the cracks, it formed me in a trap
A daily smile was only a facade upon my state of mind
Couldn’t pave a line on a way to find happiness
Evil thoughts crowded my conscience and my soul
Jumped off the bridge of pain didn’t walk take the toll
But it was handed to me, so who am I to complain?
If I'm deemed insane, it doesn't matter, I’ll keep writing
When the night comes I become quite numb with motivation
A strong tree only grows with patients, they don't noticed hating
And since my soul was vacant I needed tenets
Grab a piece of paper, let me breath a sentence, maybe lead a message
I breed to cee independence and release from stressing become a beast with blessings manifest a succeeding presents
Let those whom cast stones allow me not to throw them back
Only show em’ that I got strong when they broke my back
It happens to everyone, as it happens to be
Those reactions and teases only depended on me-for such greed
Did I have a want or did I have a need?
All I know is I want to spit till I could grasp upon the sleeves
Of the greatest ever, capture the treasure of an Emcee
With maybe someone like ME who’s passion just might agree!
(JLynn)
Take a breath, don’t be so hard
Runaway from the doubt, and loosen up your guard

(The Sun King)
And I know that, I am capable
I can escape from the fear that I grasp
The tears in my past are gapping through my mind into something I know can’t last

(JLynn)
Are you willing to be free and unwind?

(The Sun King)
I am willing to release, and find a way

(Maxx 39)
I am product of reflections I cast
Comparisons crash to brash notions, I have to focus closely at the moment be remote to the task