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All I remember is being thrown in the backseat they put me in a room with a doctor he had a needle waiting for me I said wait hold up Doctor why am i here I was looking for my mom when i found her she was in the corner crying out tears
I said wait what did I do
What even happened I tried to make a run for the door they called code red and the cops then strapped me to a chair im screaming oh my god they killin me
They say you're in a mental facility
They untie me and say you know what runaway just try it
I looked at the file on the table and it said domestic violence. I said wait no way hold up i need a moment
It took me to be at this point to realize what i was doing and notice
I needed to change
I needed to wake up
I looked at my mom for emotions but she was just vacant
Hold up mom don't do this im your son
She said no you're not look at the animal you've become
You're poppin' pills and smokin weed a few months later i lost everything
I tried to runaway i tried to kill myself I remember that day they said i need some help
I did all this shit in front of my younger brother
I remember when he used to get mad and fight me when i put my hand up at my mother what the hell did i become
They said there is no way to stop him gotta take him to a psychiatrist
I became a monster
Everything i am today it all had a start
I'm sorry mom i can't believe i broke your heart
Every day that i live my life this shit just fucking haunts me
To this day i feel like there is no damn apology that can erase all the words and the actions i once possessed but im not perfect and i must confess I love you mom and jeremy too and when i can afford to give you guys everything thats what i will do
I'm only human i make mistakes but it takes a man to admit it and here i am standing today
I barely see my brother know it tears him down to the ground cause just thinkin about it it fucking breaks me down
I missed the most important years of his life
When he needed me most i wasn't by his side damn
I say mom you know i love you don't ever be afraid to ask me for something there ain't a thing that i just won't do I know we didn't get along for a while
Don't think i forgot all the times that you made me smile and since i barely see you i try to re-live these memories when it was just us three i hope you remember me for me now and not who i was so remember me... remember us