[Verse 1]
Less and more it's on and off I'm passing through on Audubon
Interrogate me it's no wonder why we never got along
Until I have a made-up title at some kind of corporation
You won't think I'm anything just pulling from your moral basis
More tenacious the lord's support it is sort of waning
Had this dream that I've sought and worked towards attaining
Wave a finger reprimand me let me in before inhaling
Just because we're family well I fail to see the correlation
If I saw the light and before me there was a golden ladder
I would not go climb it I thought I would get the molten matter
Hug the flames like I'm an irreversible savage
But tell me what did I do to deserve this merciful action
Why would you spare me when there are others in suffering
When I clearly don't need it I find the stillness so comforting
Taciturn you have to earn a spot it's what I scoff at
Rescind the act to thin the pack I figure well that's my bad

[Chorus]
The back and forth, the highs and lows
Expected more, but it's been nice to know
The back and forth, the highs and lows
Expected more, but it's been nice to know
I don't mean to cut you off, but it's something that I tend to do
Getting by I got few wants and the verdict's in it seems it's true
Too ambitious demoralized to each their own I'll go my way
I'd prefer to live a shortened life, if it meant I couldn't waste a day
[Verse 2]
How is somebody that kind but also that selfish
How could you think that you're right it's like you're full of yourself
It's upsetting that I put defenses up to manually guard
But wanna thank you for showing me how you actually are
I should not apologize for being myself
Standing tall who's got me there ain't nobody else
The suicidal shtick is overdone but I'm a method actor
Too intent on being dead but I predict the second after
Once I'm cold here go the posts just wipe your tears and blow your noses
Suddenly you start to care when it's your kid that overdoses
We all got addictions some socially are acceptable
I turn my ringer off so I'm functionally inaccessible
Just my luck I fall for women living with some deep trauma
Ain't on purpose I suppose that hurting helps you be stronger
But we want a partner that remains consistent
And accepts you as you are and you can tell is always listening

[Chorus]
The back and forth, the highs and lows
Expected more, but it's been nice to know
The back and forth, the highs and lows
Expected more, but it's been nice to know
I don't mean to cut you off, but it's something that I tend to do
Getting by I got few wants and the verdict's in it seems it's true
Too ambitious demoralized to each their own I'll go my way
I'd prefer to live a shortened life, if it meant I couldn't waste a day