[Chorus]
I have lived my life though I have my regrets
If I lost any sleep well then I’d probably be dead
Something tells me you’re good and you’re not a threat
I’ve been indebted to you since the day that we met

[Verse 1]
Where do I start yeah where to begin
I’m a ticking time bomb boutta go pull the pin
I could take a pill and pop it putting me into a trance
I’m ash I’m air I’ll be one with the plants
Suicidal thoughts got my ideation
Everything comes back when I’m slightly faded
Wanna get things out on a timely basis
When it’s said and done well I might be jaded
Passively wish that my time’s up soon
They all told me thanks for their favorite tunes
Well I’m glad I could make a bit of difference in your lives
Put a smile on my face keeping up a disguise
Fact is I just feel rotten to my heart
My regards I will send no need to alarm
Anybody with a conscience I will be fine
And I promise I got this drawn up a line

[Chorus]
I have lived my life though I have my regrets
If I lost any sleep well then I’d probably be dead
Something tells me you’re good and you’re not a threat
I’ve been indebted to you since the day that we met
[Verse 2]
Where do I go, yeah, where to allow
Any judgment of me but they can’t tell me how
So I live my life till I wither in the sun
And if things get bad well I got a loaded gun
Ain’t my first choice but it sure won’t be the last
I’ve amassed quite a bit of trauma from the past
Imma end it someday but I don’t know when
So you might wanna talk to me least till then
Actively wish that my time’s come near
Like how could I ruin everything in a year
Well I’m glad I could be a burden to the one I love
When you’re looking where I’m at you know what I came from
Truth is I don’t think that I’m much help
To the world, as is so I tell myself
If I ever really made it I don’t think I’ll die
Full of joy or at peace or at least satisfied

[Chorus 2]
Nothing really matters oh I’m such an actor
Where I’ll wind up I admit don’t know the answer
Line my skin with bruises war in me I’m losing
Smother all my views putting them inside my music
Nothing really matters oh I’m such an actor
Where I’ll wind up I admit don’t know the answer
Line my skin with bruises war in me I’m losing
Smother all my views putting them inside my music
[Chorus]
I have lived my life though I have my regrets
If I lost any sleep well then I’d probably be dead
Something tells me you’re good and you’re not a threat
I’ve been indebted to you since the day that we met

[Chorus 2]
Nothing really matters oh I’m such an actor
Where I’ll wind up I admit don’t know the answer
Line my skin with bruises war in me I’m losing
Smother all my views putting them inside my music
Nothing really matters oh I’m such an actor
Where I’ll wind up I admit don’t know the answer
Line my skin with bruises war in me I’m losing
Smother all my views putting them inside my music