I’m not myself here’s the cheats and liars
Breathing is slowed from the tranquilizers
They are the ones keeping me on schedule
Bring me back up to sea level
Eat me up let me atrophy
When I’m gone what a travesty
Accept my life here for what it is
And not what it should have been

Abiding it privately high as a kite to be
Blocking the thing that’s been crushing me silently
Now I’m self-righteously thrashing and fighting see
Nothing preventing me from seizing violently
I had gone through it I’m a credible source
Tell me what you want ‘fore I’m headed indoors
For the winter can’t afford to freeze again withdrawn
From the ones who would fake care claim it’s wrong
Where’s the texts and messages you sent
Made a mess I can’t infer intent
One or two be missing I’ll permit it
I just find it sus that they’re omitted
Move the goalpost cause I ain’t social
The prey that’s found I’m turning down proposals
Destination’s set I’m hellbound
Got a plan imma pass up all the sellouts
I’m not myself here’s the cheats and liars
Breathing is slowed from the tranquilizers
They are the ones keeping me on schedule
Bring me back up to sea level
Eat me up let me atrophy
When I’m gone what a travesty
Accept my life here for what it is
And not what it should have been

Lament and regret on the morning when I
Ain’t waking up again said my goodbyes
No need arranging a funeral
Still I’m refusing to work in a cubicle
You ain’t really living if you sitting in a chair
When the boss don’t show and the rest don’t care
Growing older chip on my shoulder
Heart on my sleeve and been so much colder
Now I got nobody left to live for
No I don’t count want a bit more
There I go self-sabotaging and injuring
What’s my aim let it add to the mystery
And it’s true these are the words that are retrospective
Catching the poison that’s most effective
Remind myself when I get pissed off
Nothing matters here the goal’s ain’t live long
Before I know well it’s 4 AM
What I said to you’s what I’ll say to them
And I’ve gotten a date with the coroner
And truly staying alive well it’s so torturous

I’m not myself here’s the cheats and liars
Breathing is slowed from the tranquilizers
They are the ones keeping me on schedule
Bring me back up to sea level
Eat me up let me atrophy
When I’m gone what a travesty
Accept my life here for what it is
And not what it should have been