[Intro]
[Inaudible noise]
Mm, mm, yeah
[Clears throat]

[Verse]
Look, you lost this heart, and you know I ain't okay
I'll cut the world out if I don't know what to say
They that "It gets better", that, "It'll be okay"
But I don't wanna talk, get the fuck up out my face

I'm twenty-two and I'm not happy with the life I live
I watch my friends, they buying houses, getting married, they're all having kids
And I'm stuck here just wondering what I did
Like why can't I be happy, why's depression always here

I talk to God, like, "What I'm always hurtin' for?"
Every time I try to fix it, it just hurts me more
I stay lying to myself, and I say that I'm okay, but it's so hard to find myself, 'cause I don't know what I'm searchin' for

I feel so numb, but at the same timе, I'm hurtin'
I want to love myself, but my heart don't еven work
'Cause in my head, I'm drowning, with depression, I'm submerged
Always screaming out for help, but I'm always left unheard

I feel like no one really cares about my feelings
Sometimes, I drink until I'm numb, so, I don't feel this
They ask me why I run away, instead of healing it
But what's the point in talking? They wouldn't understand my reasons
Poppin' pain killers, nothing's really a pain killer
My best friend lost her life, she left a pain, killer
She was dealt some bad cards, and Satin was the dealer
I can't blame her, she just thought that the drugs healed her

But I can't blame her, this pain, it get's so heavy, I just want to break
What's the point in life? I'm dying every day
'Cause this pain inside my chest, it'll never go away
I stay locked inside my mind, and I just want to escape

And I don't want to talk about it, should be told I'm embarrassed
Trauma that's inside of me, it's passed down from my parents
They'd probably throw me in a straight jacket if I ever was to share this
I ain't even rappin', this me cryin' if you hear this

This the word of a man who's close to giving up
I'm tired of fightin' all these demons, I don't give a fuck!
I'll never give away my heart away again, man, I've had enough
I never that the one who hurt me, would be the person that I love, damn

I'm so detached from reality, it sickens me
I'm not okay with bein' sad, I just pretend to be
'Cause I ain't been okay, since the day she walked away, and I don't want opinions, you'll never know how much she meant to me

I've been fightin' since you left, 'cause you shield me
I said I'd give you everything if it kills me
'Cause if loving you is wrong, lock me up, 'cause I'm guilty
Right now I'm not okay, but, eventually I will be, ah
I hate writing, but I'm deep inside my mind again
Every time I think about you, I just cry again
Maybe in another life we can try again
So, I pull the trigger quick, and hope, one day, I get to try again

[Gunshot]