I'd go to parties and clubs
When I was young, I would drink
Vodka and rum
Until mind was numb
I wasn't stupid I just acted dumb
A night in the darkness, forget where I'm from
Dancing around pretend to have fun
Wherever I was going I would run
In a circle around the world
Trip, fumble, crawl, X on my wrist, oh fuck it I'm done with this fucking bullshit
Okay I will stop pretending
I'm not having fun
"What are you saying to me girl
I mean, what the fuck did you say
I can't hear you speak up
I don't know what the fuck you're saying
No I'm not playing, and I don't mean to be rude
I just want to go home, and no not with you"

I'd go to parties and clubs
When I was young, I would drink
Vodka and rum
Until mind was numb
I wasn't stupid, I just acted dumb
A night in the darkness, forget where I'm from
Dancing around pretend to havе fun
Wherever I was going I would run
In a circlе around the city
Trip, fumble, crawl, X on my wrist, oh fuck it I'm done with this shitty shit shit
Okay I will stop pretending
I'm not having fun
You know when you're low like you feel like a ghost
You walk all around, but nobody knows
Nobody cares, I'm screaming, " Down here"
They're too busy putting their arms in the air
But who the fuck am I to judge or say
I'm just looking for love in the wrong place
I want them to validate
I want them to salivate
I want them to want me before I push them away
I want them to see me
In the light that I show
I want them to give me a number I know
I'm not gonna call
A love that is lost
But not on my end
Like a text I won't send

I'd go to parties and clubs
When I was young, I would drink
Vodka and rum
Until mind was numb
I wasn't stupid I just acted dumb
A night in the darkness, forget where I'm from
Dancing around pretend to have fun
Wherever I was going I'd run
In a circle around the club
Trip, fumble, crawl, X on my wrist, oh fuck it I'm done with this fucking dumb shit
Okay I will stop pretending
I'm not having fun
"What did you say to me girl?
I just saw you last week
What...you fell in love with me?
Cuz you kissed me on the cheek?"
Damn I'm feeling this drink
And to think the night is over in a blink
"And I'm sorry but I don't mean to be rude
I don't like your attitude
I just want to go home
I just want to be alone
No lies, just truth
I am leaving now for real
And no not with you"

I'd go to parties and clubs
When I was young, I would drink
Vodka and rum
Until mind was numb
I wasn't stupid, I just acted dumb
A night in the darkness, forget where I'm from
Dancing around pretend to have fun
Wherever I was going I'd run
In a circle around my mind
Trip, fumble, crawl, X on my wrist, oh fuck it I'm done with this shit for real this time
Man I'm fucking done with this shit
I'm done with the hangovers
I'm done with fucking game
I'm outta here
When the lights off, its all a fucking façade anyways
I'm going home
I'm done with this shit