(It's my fault?)

[Verse 1]
I got a complicated bloodstream
Filled with different compounds
I hoped it was a bad dream
I'm sitting here like "What now?"

I wanted something that was better than this
She wrapped my last year up and sealed it tight with a kiss of death

Now I'm sitting here stressing with my withdrawals
From having someone give a shit
But it's all good

Like an addict sitting, scratching 'till their skin crawls
I just need somebody here for good

Oh, my white blood cells
Won't nurse me back to health
Oh my
Who do I call?

I watch my dead self
As he's crawling out of hell
Oh my
What a bad fall that was
[Chorus]
Sometime you could'vе given me a break
I carriеd you, you were dead weight
Now it's my fault?

Tell me how that works out
I was your fire, so you're angry that I burnt out? Damn

Sat there spitting water on the flames
Tell me who's sitting with the blame now that it's out cold?
Puddling with moisture
Tell me what happened to the girl I knew before your reign

[Bridge]
Take it all back
Tell me what happened
Heart turned black
Love is my has been
All washed up
But what am I mourning?
Singing my nights and sleeping my mornings

[Verse 2]
I fill my cup with all the problems I don't care to think of
I poured a half a 26 and then I put my drink up
I let it marinate my stomach 'till I spit the drink up
On the floorboards
And then I had to top up my cup like
What's this upon my mind still?
I'm forcing loneliness so I can write a rhyme
Will I ever let myself be happy?
Maybe I will
Or I'll just keep on sabotaging every fine kill

Then there's her
Who cut me deeper than a fucking knife
She taught me trust and then she didn't take her own advice
She fooled me once, she fooled me twice, she fooled a bunch of times
I ain't the only one she got
She fooled a bunch of guys

[Chorus]
Sometime you could have given me a break
I carried you, you were dead weight
Now it's my fault?

Tell me how that works out
I was your fire so you're angry that I burnt out? Damn

Sat there spitting water on the flames
Tell me who's sitting with the blame now that it's out cold
Puddling with moisture
Tell me what happened to the girl I knew before your reign
[Bridge]
Take it all back
Tell me what happened
Heart turned black
Love is my has been
All washed up
But what am I mourning?
Singing my nights and sleeping my mornings