I'm so tired
I'm so scared
I'm so frightened
I'm impaired
I'm a liar
That is true
It's not my fault
So how 'bout you?

A postulate you showed me where
I wasted time and didn't care
Is that what all of this amounted to?
So here I am just singing songs
I've more than accepted being wrong
So maybe one of these days you'll sing along

I'm thankful for all that you have given me
The theories you taught best ever so subtly
Only matter
When I prove them right

So, fuck that shit
I just don't wanna deal with it
I spent way too much time arguing the semantics
Fuck that shit
I just don't wanna deal with it
I spent way too much time with the tired pedantic

I'm so tired
I'm so scared
I've been trying
I do swear
My forgiveness
Lost its hue
It's not my choice
Becoming you

If royal work is what you want
I'll show you now just what I've got
It doesn't matter who makes the rules around here
This work in progress moves as planned
Set in motion by your own…
...hand?

It's not like I can't make up words around here

I'm thankful for all that you have given me
And every single letter wrote so cautiously
Only matter
When they're vaporised

So, fuck that shit
I just don't wanna deal with it
I spent way too much time arguing the semantics
Fuck that shit
I just don't wanna deal with it
I spent way too much time with the tired pedantic

So, fuck that shit
I just don't wanna deal with it
I spent way too much time arguing the semantics
Fuck that shit
I just don't wanna deal with it
I spent way too much time with the tired pedantic

“I'm sorry
I never wanted it to end like this
“I'm sorry”
She whispered as she damned me with a kiss
I'm sorry
I didn't want it to come down like this
I'm sorry
My plan which I had from the very start
Tore out your heart…
...and broke it apart.”
I wish I could tell you that it's working
These fears are not lurking
But guess what...

I can't

I wish I could think that it won't change me
A complex deranging
But guess what...

I don't

I wish that I could
Speak off this record
And tell you I'm better
But guess what…

I'm not

I wish I could tell you that everything is gonna be fine
Everything's gonna be fine
I'll make everything fine
But guess what?

I won't

--IS THAT WHAT YOU WANTED?!