[Verse 1]
I make mistakes 'cause I'm a sinner
I also know you make mistakes, I'm still a winner
How come my heart always falling, I'm yelling 'Timber'
Too many heartbreaks leave your heart cold as December
That's that, that's that wintertime love, that's chilling Netflix
I see all the red flags, but I can't help it
I used to chase after love and I'd get a death wish
It didn't turn out the way I expect 'cause I was selfish
Always felt like I'm deserving, 'cause I'm trustworthy and worth it
I be lying to myself hurtin', tryin' to tell myself that I'm perfect
I'm insecure 'cause I'm boxed in, insecure 'cause I'm toxic
Tryin' to find somebody I can lock in to distract me from other options
I just need love, I got problems
Don't wanna be alone with these problems
I don't want the drugs and the bottles
I just need somebody that'll follow
That'll follow me and seek Jesus
That'll help me pick up these pieces
Who goin' to stand? It's not easy
Wanna feel like someone else need me
That's not Christlike, I feel lukewarm
Always searching for a new charm
I get hot-headed like a newborn
When I mess, sometimes I go too far
'Cause I battle a lot with myself
All the pain I caused, I need help
I'm forever declining my health
I need somebody new, they can't tell
I need, I need that, that God love
But is that realistic?
They say that love is a drug, so do that mean I'm addicted?
One in a million chance, but I'm not into statistics
They said I'll never find love, but I'm just glad I ain't listenin'
[Chorus]
'Cause I don't usually do this, but unusual's fun
I don't care what they say, in my heart I know that I won
No matter who I was with, I knew one day you would come
I had to stop overthinking to see that you was the one
I had wrote my own love story 'cause you made me the author
Usually I would question this, but, why bother?
When I'm with you I'm in the presence of our father
No second-guessing that you were a blessing, you God's daughter

[Verse 2]
God put it all in my hands, I'll probably still mess it up
And I'll blow it all like box fans, like do I really care enough?
'Cause I search for love when I have it
Always feel like I'm lacking
Still be needing more action
I be on and off like traffic
I don't wanna hurt myself and nobody else, I guess I really need God's help
I've been soul-searching all by myself
Probably why my whole life been hell
But I believe it has a purpose, 'cause every moment has a purpose
I know I'm not supposed to be perfect, but I'll try to be if you worth it
Then it turns toxic and I'm hurtin'
Now I feel dead, we need hearses
So many people see me as a burden 'cause they can't read me like I'm in cursive
I let all emotions to the surface
It's the only way I find purpose
I put all my faith in one person so that explains why it's never workin'
I need healing after heartbreak, that take patience
When Mom and Dad get divorced, it just feels contagious
It's like my outlook on marriage completely changes
I gotta make sure we never on different pages 'cause
[Chorus]
'Cause I don't usually do this, but unusual's fun
I don't care what they say, in my heart I know that I won
No matter who I was with, I knew one day you would come
I had to stop overthinking to see that you was the one
I had wrote my own love story 'cause you made me the author
Usually I would question this, but, why bother?
When I'm with you I'm in the presence of our father
No second-guessing that you were a blessing, you God's daughter