Verse 1:
You know just how to brew your coffee so
Every flavor shows its teeth
You take your time with each section of my spine, babe
You really know just how to please
And you're meticulous with every grocery list
You've got a garden growing green
I smile silently
You're staring back at me and say
Tell me what you're thinkin for a penny

Chorus:
But I don't want to tell you why I don't cry anymore
How many nights I've spent clutching my knees against the floor
I buy precooked rice
And I'm not that nice to myself
I don't wanna show you what it's like behind my smile
So I'll just keep my thoughts at bay and kiss you for a while
Lеt's keep our lips busy
Get a little dizzier
Blurring this illusion that I built for you
Don't shattеr it now

Verse 2:
You get up early, you go on runs
6 miles through the city just for fun
You revel in the stillness of the morning
Invite me to the desert without any sort of warning
I take my pills at 11
Get out of bed at quarter til
Can't seem to find where I've misplaced my piece of mind but
Believe it or not this is how I heal
Chorus:
But I don't want to tell you why I don't cry anymore
How many nights I've spent clutching my knees against the floor
I buy precooked rice
And I'm not that nice to myself
I don't wanna show you what it's like behind my smile
So I'll just keep my thoughts at bay and kiss you for a while
Let's keep our lips busy
Get a little dizzier
Blurring this illusion that I built for you
Don't shatter it now

Bridge:
You can buy me jade, we can hope it grows but
Today I'm still too petrified to genuinely show you who I am
But I'll eat your homemade jam

Chorus 2:
Don't wanna cry for you, won't open up that door
So I'll just get my things and drive away just like before
I'll try to keep myself busy
Stop getting dizzy I'll
Hide behind this cold, aloof illusion
So for the sake of settling confusion
It's over now
It's over now