Hidden who I really was
Beat me up and call me dumb
Scream up at my face that I was gay and leave me bruised
I was too young to get it
Flipped off I'm pissed off I even slit my wrist off
Scars on my body
Never seen what I was goin through
Ain't nobody helpin me
I'm screaming at the Gods like
Why ain't no one helping me?
All I wanted was a simple life this wasn't spose to be
A year ago I lost my bestfriend that was close to me
Heart hurtin
Chest burstin
Inside of my body feels like its burnin
Devil in my soul I keep turnin
Nevеr open up to people causе I'm feelin like a burden
Never talk about my dad cause I hate it
Anxiety attackin me and doctors only gave me medication
Which made my ass so numb I couldn't take it
Cause all I did was feel down
Grab liquor swallow pills down
And they dont understand what I'm feelin I'm scared of death
But I keep searchin for it
It's like the more my adrenaline pumping I keep runnin
And when it starts to fade that's when the drugs come in
A year ago I got fucked up I drugged up my stomach
Therapist told me that heartbreaks can make a single soul crazy
Got me feelin like a junior slim shady
So I'm cryin out for help but they dont ever once save me

I never really meant to hurt you
Trust is a scary virtue
I gave you everything and all you did was burn me
Turn me into somethin I ain't ever seen
Still to this day I be struggling to sleep
Then they ask me why I'm takin night walks
Cause maybe I'm prayin they turn my lights off
I'm sorry but you wanted in my thoughts
I never open up and I'm sorry for showing nothin
But music is the only thing that speaks to me
I feel like if i tell you that I'm sad it seems weak to me
And even just to get the nerve to tell you it takes weeks for me
Crying
I could feel the poison in my veins
No I'm not okay
Although you think I am because its always what I say
I just been so numb it feels like nothings real
I just been so empty I can't fuckin feel
But I can feel my body start to fade my heart is cold from all these fuckin pills
I get them inject them in them to pin them my hand gripping
I can't feel
Drink another bottle I just cannot stop
Friend laid out on blacktop by a damn cop
I blacked out from a drop
Use to put my faith in God
Running like my pops
Timeout
Please I need a time out
Dont know where I'm going need to find out
I found
Nothing inside of me
Besides all the anxiety
Brain cocked say goodbye to me
See I needed you
"I know"
No you didn't bitch I needed you
I was sitting in my room cryin
Money in my life only really caused violence
Pissed off
I can feel your lips still I'm bouta cut my lips off
I done tried every drug on the self
Trust me when I say this cause it never really helped
All I really did was just poison my self