I miss the days when
I was so happy and fine
And there was a smile on my face you would find
I was a normal kid up on the block
Hang with my friends that I grew up with
Now they in a room all with
Other cellmates they belong with
Most of my friends I grew up with
Use to be reachable arm width
Happiness out of my reach
Depression is treating me just like a leech
I need to close everybody all out of my life
Just to be able to breathe
Got to the point where I'm tired of lies
I got a case of fatigue
I miss the days when
I really wanted to rap where did that kid go
Guess he really stuck in the past no
I miss the days when
There was no such thing as fake friends
See I was okay then
No I miss the days when
I wasn't witnessing my friends laid out on the cement
By all these police men
I guess that I really went in the deep end
Yeah I miss the days when
I wasn't a single patient
And I didn't have meds that I'm takin
Its burnin my body its burnin my body
I think that I finally met satan
Yeah I miss the days when
My brother and I, kept finding like tons of these sticks to go play with
It's too much to take in
I know you hate the way you look right now
It's okay old you-you ain't hooked right now
Go ahead and stay strong read that book right now
Prepare ya self for the worse cause you ain't shook right now
Cause yo life is like a highway and you stood right out
Though you gotta lotta time before you sink right down
You been smiling you happy but you shut that down
You dancing to that music without music youd be fucked right now
Keep that in yo head because yo luck ran out
See that devil went to grab you and you didn't duck down

I wanna feel what its like, actually bein in peace
I miss the days when
I had my shoes on the wrong feet
And drama never would involve me
And none of the people would come and surround me
And I had a boundary
And devil would lurk but he never has found me
Back at the age of twelve
I really miss how I felt
See it was so simple then
I had some little friends
But when they grew up they wasn't smokin and drinkin
Apparently I'm in the same hole
And by the age of seventeen it was too late
I was an asshole
But I never asked for
Any of this to come happen
But I guess it happens
Yeah I miss the days when
Way before grade ten
Back when i went to church prayin the amen
But when I grew up I was no longer the fuckin same man
So what do I say man?
Yeah I miss the days when
I wasn't poppin prescription to start feelin different this shit was just different like why dont you listen I'm tired of spittin for all of you people that just like the beat like please
Listen to every word that I speak
You got me beggin I'm down on my knees
I need a way to feel free
So please quit yo judging cause I'm smokin weed
You doin you so just let me be me
I miss the times we had when we was kids
Me my brother always fought cause I was scared to not exist
Why you think I went to music I dont want yall to forget
I wanna atleast make an impact before I'm deceased please I can't do this anymore I'm beggin on my knees
God?
Give me a sign
If I should resign
Or keep makin rhymes
Cause I got no interest in nothin else
It's impossible to be the greatest when you crown yo self
Just like it's impossible to be happy cause you crowd yo self
That made me drown in guilt
Happiness took out my chest
I lay in my room as I cry to myself
Take me back when I could actually feel
Happiness not just the word but somethings that's real
Maybe I'm already dead
Back when I slit my wrist
Back when I'm snortin the coke
And swallowing pills and shit
I did some shit that was poisonous
I hope the younger me can hear me and you start avoiding this

I wanna tell you our life
I wanna tell you everythings alright
But deep down I know that that would be a lie
Besides, you gon be fine
Look at you now you survived
Yeah look at you now you survived