Toni Jones
Energy Budget
I recall all my power and all my energy back to me with divine care
Whoever, whatever is living off my light energy
Run that back, get your own
I'm emotionally gifted, so I must guard that gift with wisdom and firmness
My openness is emotionally generous
I must be watchful
I'm seeing who are and who aren't skilled to receive
I receive what others' blind spots are, teaching me about budgeting my energy and settin' them boundaries
I have the right to tell people what they don't want to hear in the name of settin' them boundaries
I also won't exhaust myself on people who ain't listenin'
I'm done with people pleasin' and the attachment to make everyone happy with me
I won't share like how I used to share
I "people" people wiser
I know now people pleasin' isn't love, but it is fear

I am magnificent at releasing expired emotional ties
To how I structure my life with people, knowledge, money, friends, nutrition, health of my body, love, & time
I'm free from overexplainin' and justifying my choices
My cut-offs aren't personal, they're spiritual

Anyways, I call back all energy that belongs to me
I am not the caretaker of those who want to stay asleep
I release the programming of being overly responsible for the happiness of others

The divinity in me, you know what's up
Tell me who I should share my intimate energy with
I focus my energy on who sees me and skillfully respects me
Not those who are skilled in choosin' their false stories about me
I notice and accept when there is unequal energy exchange
I have more mental real estate when I release people I bonded with through my trauma self
And not through my healing self
Yet, I am deeply grateful for the hidden gifts that divine used them for
To help me see my worth

I speak the law of reciprocity and mutual exchange in my most intimate relationships
I now know misalignments aren't personal, but vibrational
I enroll myself into believing my emotional health
Is to create healthy boundaries for myself
I cast away the curse of suppressing my emotions

I am free from internal violence towards my feelings
How I feel is a part of fulfilling my purpose
I explore a healthy relationship between my emotions and boundaries
If they feel like home and they feel safe to be around
I spend more time with that type
I'm learning how to interpret people's energy, especially those I love
I emit my own frequency and monitor how much energy I absorb from events, social media, textin', conversations, entertainment, and thinking

I attract connections where my love languages are valued, explored, and met
I'm on a budget
I gotta keep that same energy no matter what

I surround myself with emotionally mature allies that are strong when I am vulnerable
I vow to not play nice just to be named nice
My circle got like a lower case "o" and I love it here
I'm laughing because I have no clue what's here
But goddangit, I'm gon' get curious
And lean into it like I know it will all be all good for me
Good for us

I have people in my life
I don't have to reexamine to reposition in my life
I am honest with who really got what it takes to connect with me
And what I offer to connection
On some real ish, my worth is not based on how much I give
Even if I misinterpret it
No misunderstood
I know I am not being distant
I am now gravitating to the vibes that best suit my energy

I'm picky with who I allow into my inner chords
I am my own verification
I embrace learning relational intelligence to enrich how I relate and invite others to relating deeper
Even if parts of me are still tender

I am surrounded only by others who feel like honey

I have the wisdom to see through agendas
To play any individual or collective racial wounds against my emotional energy and free thinking
The power within me is stronger than the one percent that attempts to control my energetic wealth and wellbeing
My energy is the truest wealth in existence
I am made in the image of God and I'm opening to realizing that more
This is my truest identity and no one can tell me otherwise
2019 was a launching pad to my truest thrive ever
I'm selective where I place my emotional resources and jewels
I open up to only those worthy of my trust
I am worth connections that have spiritual depth
I no longer have to be the strong one, the spiritual one
I have accepted the aligned tribe
I now know that toxic energy of those close to me
Are not alchemized by my spiritual relationship
With myself and kindness towards them
With a swiftness and humility, I bow outta that and let their life be their teacher
I love people, but my energy tolerance budget is hella bougie
I gotta watch my budget on this energy here
Hey, hey, hey, hey